When will you be back? I'll buy you a ticket. ”
Looking at this message, I felt a trace of helplessness in my heart, and typed back: "Wait two more days, there are still three blind date bureaus that have not been completed." ”
After receiving my phone, I looked at the man who came over from the front desk, smiled and said, "Thank you." ”
Forgot to ask you, are you at work? The man handed me a cup of coffee.
I smiled and replied, "* I work as an executive in a company that is not big or small. ”
The man reached out and helped his glasses, smiled lightly and said, "I heard that the girls who do administrative work are very gentle, and sure enough, it's true." ”
Hearing his words, I really laughed this time, and I said, "It's not allowed to be labeled like this, it varies from person to person." ”
The man was embarrassed and smiled: "Do you have any plans to come back and develop?" Although our Jingcheng is a small city, it has been good in the past two years. ”
This man's name is Zhao Yiran, and he was introduced by my aunt. He opened a wedding company in Jingcheng and was also a small boss. After chatting for a couple of sentences, I feel that others are not bad.
Well, my mom is really urging, it should be only these two years. ”
Zhao Yiran looked at me and said, "The old people are all kind-hearted, and my parents are always urging." He paused and said, "Two years is fine, not too long." ”
He spoke half clearly and half confused.
This is not the first time I have been forced to go on a blind date, and I can see and hear it.
I smiled and said, "Two years is still a long time, we can't afford to wait at our age, and we have to urge our family to die." ”
At this point, I felt that it would be too hypocritical for me to continue talking, so I picked up my bag, stood up, and said, "I'm sorry, I'm going to go first." ”
Zhao Yiran also stood up, the smile on his face was still there, and he said, "WeChat has been added, don't delete it, right?" ”
I was stunned for a second, then nodded and whispered, "Okay, it's a fellow countryman after all." ”
He looked at me and nodded, but his smile faded.
At night, before going to bed, the phone rang.
It was Cheng Qian who called***
I didn't really want to see him at this point.
Let's have a voice chat. ”
Cheng Qian didn't listen and continued to fight
There was no time when I could beat him.
Are you interesting? Does it have to follow you? "I was in a very impulsive tone.
Cheng Qian didn't speak immediately, just looked at me with a pair of eyes on the other end of the phone.
His eyes are deep and he always holds a thousand words.
Back then, I plunged headlong into his world, and it started with these damn eyes.
At the moment, I didn't want to look at it, and I said, "If you have something to say, say it quickly!" ”
After waiting for a few seconds, there was finally a response from the other end.
Day after tomorrow. I bought you a ticket for the day after tomorrow back**.
I was stunned, and then I got angry.
Cheng Qian, why did you decide when I would go back? ”
How? Which one do you like? He asked me in a lazy tone, without the slightest hint of urgency.
I was choked.
In a hurry, I said loudly: "Zhao Yiran, the man I met today is quite reliable." ”
The words fell, and there was silence all around.
Yu Huizhen, obediently get in the car and go back to ** the day after tomorrow, do you understand? He finally got in a hurry.
My mood suddenly improved.
Okay, I'm doing well this year, and my mom shouldn't be embarrassed about me. ”
Cheng Qianyin looked at me with a face, as if he wanted to see a big hole in my face.
He asked coldly: "Yu Huizhen, what is the name of the one you met today?" ”
Zhao Yiran. I giggled, "What?" Are you amnesic? ”
I rarely remember the name of my blind date.
Cheng Qian sneered coldly: "Yu Huizhen, you are really kind!" ”
As soon as I came out of the exit of the station, I saw Cheng Qian and his car.
I got into the car with a smile.
Cheng Qian didn't look at me, stepped on the accelerator sharply, and the car sped away.
I don't know where I've come, I don't care.
I closed my eyes and whispered, "Don't make a fuss, I have to catch up on sleep when I go back." Last night, a little doll in the carriage cried all night and didn't sleep well. ”
Take out your phone. ”
It's the same old again.
I threw my phone at him.
Go back, the harvest is not small. He sneered, paused for a second, and asked, "What about Zhao Yiran?" ”
I laughed, then reached out and snatched my phone, slowly opening my eyes and staring at him.
I asked: "Cheng Qian, you do this every time, aren't you tired?" ”
The man came over with a pair of frosty eyes, looking directly at me.
I'm not afraid.
In the next second, the man was ruthless, and he grabbed the back of my head with one hand, lifting my face several inches.
What about Zhao Yiran? ”
It's boring. I tugged at the corners of my mouth and wanted to smile, but I said, "I deleted it a long time ago." I have self-knowledge, I don't deserve it. ”
Cheng Qian looked at me until he confirmed that I was telling the truth, and the hardness between his eyebrows relaxed. He began to kiss me on the lips, starting with gentleness and gradually becoming domineering. He locked my whole body and whispered in my ear: "Yu Huizhen, you and I are the most compatible." ”
The best match? It's been seven years, and the answer is in**?
In the first year, I was attracted to him, but I was timid.
The more you like it, the more you dodge.
He stopped me in a corner of the library building and asked, "How many days haven't you been?" I only blinked my head and was silent for a long time before I said, "I'm taking leave to go home......."My mom was sick ......He lowered his head and bit my lip, and in my frightened look, he clearly warned: "Tell me first next time you go to **." I stupidly asked, "Why?" He came to bite my lip again, but it only itched but it didn't hurt, and he said seriously, "Because I'm your boyfriend." ”
I still remember that there was an osmanthus tree in that small corner, and there was a wisp of autumn wind blowing at that time, and the fragrance of osmanthus was like that into my heart.
The next year, there was a breakup.
That night, he caught me downstairs in the dormitory and yelled at me: "Yu Huizhen, what do you mean? Who told you to go out and be a tutor? Who told you to go to an old man's house as a tutor? I came back from several trips, I was very tired, I pushed his hand away, and wanted to calm down: "Being a tutor is a serious part-time job, why can't you do it?" He was still angry, and he rebuked me: "Did I say that I will earn our expenses, what can you do?" ”
He and I are both children of single-parent families, he is worse than me, my parents have reorganized the family, they don't want him, he has been fostered in a cousin's house since junior high school.
We earn our own living expenses.
I was also tempted to see my roommate as a tutor, so I didn't say hello to him because I knew that he had this attitude. I didn't want to debate with him, I said, "Cheng Qian, I'm really tired, can you say it tomorrow?" He didn't like my attitude, and he yelled at me, "Don't say it tomorrow, you can't go again!" His ** annoyed me and I yelled, "My roommate is doing it too, which law doesn't allow me to do it?" He glared at me and finally said coldly, "I don't allow it, my girlfriend, I have the final say!" I was so angry with him that I said, "Okay, then you can take care of your girlfriend, it's none of my business!" He was stunned for a moment, then looked cold and asked, "Yu Huizhen, what do you mean?!" I also looked at him with cold eyes: "That's what you understand!" ”
That trouble ended with me raising the white flag.
He was standing downstairs in my dormitory, in the wind and rain, and not as determined as he was. When I ran over, he hugged me until he suffocated, kissing desperately, even more crazy than the man in Aunt Qiong Yao's pen, and I was also like the woman in Aunt Qiong Yao's pen, stupidly fallen.
In the third year, our relationship was generally stable.
In the fourth year, the internship is looking for a job.
I asked Cheng Qian: "They all said that they would break up after graduation, I don't know if it's true?" Cheng Qian was perfecting his resume at the time, and he raised his eyes to look at me: "You enter a company with me and break up?" I was shocked and said, "We have different departments and different majors, how can we enter a company?" He smiled and hugged me: "Fool, there are multiple departments in the company. I submitted all my resumes. All along, I can't change him, I can only resist: "Cheng Qian, why do you always make decisions for me?" He ignored my ** and sealed my lips: "Don't argue, you're my girlfriend, listen to me." ”
In the fifth year, I thought I would get his marriage proposal.
The two of us entered a Sino-foreign joint venture company, the cultural atmosphere is very good, and there are many office romances.
At the company's annual meeting, several female employees received touching on-site marriage proposals. I drank a lot that night and laughed with people all the time, both men and women.
Cheng Qian's face darkened, dragged me to a staircase, and began to reprimand me: "Yu Huizhen, what are you making trouble?" I laughed heartlessly: "I didn't make a fuss, I just drank happily." Cheng Qian was still angry: "I don't know how to drink, what do you drink!" People don't even know if they eat tofu! "He never hid the relationship between the two of us in the company, let alone tucked it up, and even managed me in a high-profile manner. I borrowed wine to strengthen my courage and asked loudly: "Cheng Qian, when are you going to propose to me?" My mom urged me to talk about friends—".
What a marriage proposal! What's so good about getting married! He saw that I was unsteady on my feet, and approached me to hug me, "Go, come home with me, and make you some honey water." ”
I stood still, but I didn't move.
My eyes were staring at him like that, and my eyes were straining.
Don't mess with me here! He reminded me, the strength of his hands increased, "Go home!" ”
The staircase is narrow and dim, as if it is a desperate place with no way out.
What kind of home to go back to? Where's home? I shook off his hand and shouted loudly, "Cheng Qian, if you don't marry me, will we have a family?" After shouting, my tears came and went like summer rain. I looked at the man in front of me more, it was all cruel to my youth, and I went downstairs, like a monster here and there was a monster asking for my life.
That was the first time I knew that Cheng Qian had a grudge against marriage.
That night, Cheng Qian had no pity for me, he looked at my tears and had no compassion at all. He said: "Yu Huizhen, I can give it to you for the rest of my life, but marriage can't." You know why? Because, I don't want to send this relationship between you and me to that cold grave! ”
At that time, I realized that he loved me very much, but he didn't intend to give me another shore.
In the sixth year, I began to go back to my hometown Jingcheng to accept the blind date arranged by my mother.
Cheng Qian scolded me: "Yu Huizhen, are you crazy? I wasn't afraid at all, I said: "Cheng Qian, I have already broken up with you, you want to stalk me, who is it?" Seeing that my attitude was so bad, he was very annoyed, and he said, "Don't overestimate yourself, you can't do without me." ”
My eyes instantly became sour, and indeed, he was right. For so many years, I have only pretended to be him alone in my heart, and I want to have a warm home.
Also a single parent, he sees marriage as a grave where he buried his formative years; But I hope that marriage will be a harbor and can make up for my childhood regrets.
That's why we can't work together for the rest of our lives.
I've recognized it and tried to turn back, but he didn't want me. As a result, my pain began to double.
Entanglement has become a daily routine between me and him.
This year marks the seventh year.
Coming out of the bathroom, I looked at the man who was busy working in the kitchen.
The back is tall. Just looking at it can give people an infinite sense of security.
But it turns out that there are also such obvious falsehoods in the world.
The phone rang.
I clicked on it and saw a message from my mother.
Xiaozhen, Yiran came to the house again and brought a lot of things. People are really good, you think about it. "There is a ** at the bottom, which is two barrels of cooking oil and a bag of rice.
Walking into the kitchen, I reached out and hugged Cheng Qian from behind, I didn't put my breath, I said calmly: "Long pain is better than short pain, break up." We are no longer suitable. ”
Cheng Gan's action of cutting apples paused, and he said, "Yu Huizhen, it's my birthday today, don't mess with me." ”
I let go of him and said, "For your birthday, I didn't prepare anything." What's the use of you wanting a girlfriend like me? ”
Cheng Qian stuffed a piece of apple into my mouth, and said with a smile: "I don't care if it's useful or not, I only know that I want to." ”
I watched him smile and felt bitter.
Taking out my mobile phone, I swiped the message from my mother and handed it to Cheng Qian's nose, I said, "It's true this time, I didn't mess with you." We're going to get together and disperse, I need a home, I need to-".
Before I finished speaking, Cheng Qian knocked off my mobile phone and smashed the plate containing the apple in his hand, he stared at me hatefully, and then asked me word by word: "Do you have to break up?" Do you have to get married? ”
I've seen him go crazy many times, but every time, I'm a little scared, and I think that's probably why I don't dare to leave him so easily.
As for what I'm afraid of, I don't really understand.
Am I afraid that he will hurt himself, or am I afraid that he will chase me and pester me?
Perhaps, I'm afraid of both.
The night is here again, and my pain and my tears are coming.
Cheng Qian hugged me so tightly that he whispered in my ear: "Xiaozhen, don't leave my ......."”
Don't leave me, don't be like my father, don't be like my mother, just leave me ......”
Cheng Qian would not say such true words to me, even if he said it a hundred times in his heart, he would not spit a word on me.
Because, it's so miserable, so miserable that you can't open your voice.
And I, except to hold back more tears and gently hug him back, nothing else can be.
Entanglement, I thought it was endless.
Unexpectedly, the turnaround was not slow.
Brother Cheng, come back to Belvedere, I will invite you to dinner. Yesterday thanks to your help. ”
This is a voice message.
The girl's voice is sweet.
I went in and looked through her circle of friends, and I was shocked that the girl's appearance was somewhat similar to mine.
Cheng Qian's figure appeared in the ** posted by the girl.
Belvedere has a branch of the company, and Cheng Qian, as a technician, often has to go there on business trips.
Who is this little girl? I looked at the man who came out of the bathroom with a smile on my face.
He walked over to take a look, then pulled open a drawer to find a hair dryer and began to blow his hair.
Xu Tiantian, Front Desk Administration of Belvedere Branch. ”
I scoffed, "You're pretty single-minded." With that, I smashed my phone in his face.
Looking out the window, I think it's better for me to go out and stay in a hotel.
Opening the wardrobe, I began to organize my clothes.
I try to think on the good side, and I have to think on the good side.
A man who doesn't want to commit to marriage, I can't ask for it. It's a good thing for him and me that he's looking for another home.
My hands stopped shaking, my facial expression relaxed, and I knew I was doing a good job.
There were some clothes that I didn't want to wear anymore, so I said, "What I don't take away is what I don't want." ”
Three seconds after the words fell, Cheng Qian raised his hand and threw away the hair dryer, and he walked towards me with a breath from hell.
If you don't take it away, you don't want it? Is that me, too? He grabbed my jaw, his eyes were red, but his face was blue, "I wish I had given you a little pigtail to grab, right?" You want to lose me like that! ”
He threw me so the bed that the back of my head was about to hit the head of the bed.
The pain of waiting did not come, and it was Cheng Qian who blocked it in time with one of his hands.
I didn't want to pay attention to the kindness of the initiator, but it also dawned on me, and I finally knew how I was going to deal with my fears.
The May Day holiday is coming, and my mother urged me to go back to my hometown.
This time, it was not to urge me to go back on a blind date, but to urge me to go back to see Zhao Yiran more directly.
She decided to want Zhao Yiran to be her son-in-law.
I made a table of dishes and turned the kitchen directly into a scrapyard.
As soon as Cheng Qian entered the door, his brows furrowed.
Because I haven't messed with him for a long time, my abnormality today makes him impatient to deal with me.
He asked me directly, "You want to mention breaking up again, right?" ”
Time is such a good thing.
For this topic, Cheng Qian also began to get tired.
It's good to be tired, something that tires and no one wants.
Especially, a tiring relationship.
I showed him the message of chatting with Zhao Yiran this time, and I said: "Cheng Qian, I admit it, I love you, but the person who married me may not be you." ”
Cheng Qian chewed a black egg, looked at me, and said lightly: "Xiaozhen, people only have one life, why do you choose to live hypocritically?" You don't love him, you marry him, what is your conscience? ”
It's so rare.
Cheng Qian began to tell me the truth of life.
I seem to see a glimmer of light.
I endured the turmoil in my heart, tried to be calm on my face, and said, "That's because you Cheng Qian is unwilling to give me the opportunity to live a real life, I can't help it." ”
Cheng Qian held my hand and kept looking at me without speaking.
When I couldn't stand it anymore and was about to say compromising words, he suddenly let go of my hand and whispered, "Xiaozhen, you can go." ”
I was stunned. Come to think of it, I'm actually jealous of you. I'm jealous that you see a broken marriage but still have expectations for it, and I'm jealous of your courage to run to marriage. Cheng Qian stopped looking at me, he turned his face away and looked at the darkness outside the window, "I'm very selfish, I hate marriage, I'll pull you into the water." I want to use you to prove that I can be happy without ...... marriage”
The darkness outside the window, crawling into the window, climbed into my heart.
The envisaged means were not useful at all, so I said in a low tone: "Cheng Qian, I really didn't expect you to tell me this. I'm even ready to scare you with a fruit knife on my wrist today ......Hehe, I'm overestimating myself again......As I spoke, tears fell from my eyes.
I remembered the osmanthus in the corner of the library that year, and the autumn wind blew and it was a wisp of incense.
Cheng Qian came over and hugged me, he reached out to stroke the top of his hair, and said softly: "Xiaozhen, forgive me for my self-righteousness all along, forgive me for saying that you and I are the best ......."At all, I don't deserve your ......”
Tears, the darkness that fills the night, but they can't withstand the length of the night.
This year's Spring Festival is coming, and the men who used to go on a blind date with me will go back to their hometown in Jingcheng for the New Year.
I'm sending out a message.
During the Spring Festival holiday, let's go out on a trip, don't stay at home. ”
Zhao Yiran quickly replied to me: "Okay, listen to my wife." ”
Before going to bed, Zhao Yiran handed me his mobile phone: "Wife, which hotel do you want to book?" ”
My eyes twinkled, and I said, "How do I get to Belvedere?" There's nothing fun there, is there? ”
Zhao Yiran smiled and stretched out his hand to wrap his hand around my shoulder: "I'm going to Belvedere during the Spring Festival, go there to watch the fireworks." ”
I still don't want to go to Belvedere.
Fireworks are fleeting, what's there to see? ”
Zhao Yiran listened to my words, took off his glasses, so that I could really see his eyes, where there was a faint unwillingness and grievance, he said: "Fireworks are short-lived, but gorgeous, and they will always make people remember." ”
This sentence means something and is too obvious.
I was annoyed, pushed him away, and scolded: "Zhao Yiran, you can't speak, you don't have to speak!" ”
When he saw that I reacted resolutely, he couldn't stand it, so he pressed down and began to kiss my eyebrows and eyes indiscriminately. He said, "You are my wife, and from the day you get married, you can't worry about others!" ”
I was confused, and I quickly recalled it, but I still didn't have a clue.
Zhao Yiran, you have something to say! ”
He hugged me and whispered, "Don't be angry......”
I reached out and touched the top of his hair, and I said, "I'm not angry. You say, what's the matter with you? ”
Zhao Yiran looked into my eyes and spoke in a lower voice: "I know, you don't want to go to Belvedere because of that Cheng Qian, right?" ”
The movement of my hands suddenly stopped, and my eyes cooled.
How did you know he was in Belvedere? ”
Zhao Yiran hugged me tighter, as if he wanted to hug the sand that would slip away, and he said, "I peeked at your phone, I couldn't hold back my ......."”
I didn't have a seizure, and I continued to ask, "What else?" What do you see? ”
He didn't speak, he looked at me and shook his head, his expression like a trained puppy.
On the first day I returned to Jingcheng, I blacked out Cheng Qian.
Heart, if it doesn't hurt, it would be too fake.
But, time is invincible.
It seems that I am going to block the circle of friends of my former colleagues so that you can live with me in peace. ”
Zhao Yiran's eyes lit up, and then he apologized to me: "I'm sorry, my wife ......."Next time, I won't mess with you! After a pause of two seconds, he leaned over to kiss me and confirmed with me, "Wife, you're not in a bad mood, are you?" ”
I smiled and said, "Why do you want to be bad?" Aren't you reviewing yourself? ”
His eyes lit up again, the kiss was more gentle, and he said carefully: "Wife, then I'll review one more thing, don't be angry, okay?" ”
When I heard this, I couldn't bear it anymore, and shouted softly, "What else have you done?" ”
He was startled, and after a while, he said cautiously: "It's a ...... before."Before the May Day holiday last year, I accompanied my mother to a trip....Speaking of this, he glanced at me, "Mom said to urge you to go home, but you are not active, you can't wait, you have to go by yourself, I don't worry, so I will send her over to ......."”
He said it was very difficult, and I was not happy, and the whole person was stunned.
The night was too quiet.
Under the quiet night, there are waves after waves, the old falling and the new coming up.