Li Xue and I can be said to be childhood sweethearts, growing up together, and our families live very closely, so we have often commuted to and from school together since elementary school. I still remember when I was in the third grade of primary school, Li Xue lent me her favorite vase and asked me to put it on the table to decorate. That little pink vase became a testimony to our friendship.
When we were in junior high school, we were placed in different classes, and although we had less time to see each other, we would still happily chat for a while. When we got to high school, we happened to be classmates again. On the eve of the college entrance examination, I plucked up the courage to confess to Li Xue.
Li Xue, we have known each other for so many years, and you are a very important person to me. I like you and want to be with you. I said nervously.
Li Xue's eyes widened in surprise at first, then she blushed, lowered her head and said, "I like you too, fool." ”
That's it, after the college entrance examination, we are officially together. In order to meet more often, we applied to the same university. I remember that on the first day of school, Li Xue stood at the door of the dormitory with a big travel bag on her back and waved to me, her face full of joy at the beginning of school.
Let's live together, and we often stay together anyway. Li Xue proposed.
Okay, I was about to say that. I said yes without hesitation.
Since the beginning of my freshman year, Li Xue and I have lived together in a dormitory. Every day, we go to class together, learn Xi together, eat together, and the relationship is getting stronger and stronger. Li Xue is a gentle and considerate girl, she often helps me tidy up the bedroom and make some snacks. I also did my best to take care of her life.
That day, I suddenly received a message from a strange girl, saying that Li Xue has been with a boy a lot recently, and the relationship seems to be very ambiguous. I was so surprised that I didn't believe it was true. But when I saw this message, I couldn't help but have some mixed feelings in my heart.
Li Xue, who have you been with lately?I asked tentatively.
It's the same as usual, who else can there be. What's wrong?"Li Xue didn't seem to notice anything strange about me.
It's nothing, but I suddenly got a message that you've been with a guy a lot lately, and it feels like you're hiding something from me. "I still voiced my doubts.
What?!This is clearly a rumor!Aren't you the only boy next to me?Li Xue immediately denied it.
Seeing her reaction so strong, I was relieved: "That's good, maybe it's just a rumor." There should be no misunderstanding between us. ”
Of course, there is no misunderstanding, you have to have faith in our relationship. Li Xue held my hand and said sincerely.
After this episode, my relationship with Li Xue has become stronger. Once again, we reiterate that we treat each other exclusively and do not listen to any rumors from the outside world. Li Xue also often cooks warm meals for me when I am tired and takes care of my daily life. I also try to spend as much time with her as I can and spend time with her.
In this way, our college years were spent in sweetness, and soon it was our junior year. This year, Li Xue said that she wanted to go abroad to study for graduate school and see life abroad. Although I was a little reluctant, I fully supported her decision.
Studying abroad is a great opportunity, and you must take advantage of it. I just can't bear you to leave me. I said with a smile.
I'll miss you too, but it's really important for me in the future. Please support me. Li Xue held my hand tightly, her eyes shining with expectation.
Rest assured, I will always be on your side. Your dreams are my dreams. I hugged Li Xue and kissed her lightly on the top of her head.
Li Xue was very happy and immediately began to work hard to prepare the application materials. I also did my best to help her revise her essays and plan interviews. Through our joint efforts, Li Xue was finally admitted to a top foreign university.
The day of parting was fast approaching. I took Li Xue to our favorite restaurant and ordered her favorite dishes, hoping to keep some good memories of my hometown.
Will you miss me?Li Xue was full of mouths, looking up at me while chewing.
Of course, I will think of you all the time. I wiped her mouth with a tissue.
At that moment, I suddenly felt a strong sense of reluctance. But this is Li Xue's life, and I am not qualified to stop it.
After sending Li Xue away, my life quieted down. Li Xue will chat with me regularly and tell me about new things abroad. I'll also tell her what's going on here and how much I miss her.
I miss you super super much!"* Li Xue on the other end kissed me on the phone screen.
Me too, the dorm room was empty, the bed was cold, and everything was a reminder that you weren't around. I complained.
Bear with me, and I will soon be able to return to China. Li Xue comforted me.
As the days passed, Li Xue's contact became less and less. She always said that she was very busy with schoolwork and would contact her when she had time. I can understand her hard work, but I can't contain the feeling of longing.
Finally, when Li Xue went abroad for a year, she suddenly called: "We need to talk about it." ”
My heart rose to my throat: "Li Xue, what do you want to say?"”
I think it's better for us to be apart for a while. We're both young, and I don't think there's any need to make a lifelong commitment now. Li Xue's tone was stiff.
I was so angry that my hands were trembling: "Li Xue, it's clear that you have changed your mind!."Such a deep affection between us, you just erase it?”
I still wanted to argue, but Li Xue hung up**. At this moment I broke down, slamming the wall desperately to vent, until my hands were bleeding and could not calm my sadness and anger.
Li Xue broke up with me like this. She never contacted me again, and it was as if the world had vanished. My life was thrown out in an instant, I lost my soul, and I spent all day and night hoping that she would change her mind.
As a result, on the day of graduation, I happened to see a wedding scene of **, the bride was Li Xue, and the groom was a tall and handsome foreign boy. It turned out that she met a new love abroad.
I was completely devastated, this breakup was still my naivety after all, Li Xue had made up her mind, and I was still struggling to keep it here. At this moment, I hate Li Xue very much, and I also hate my stupidity and dedication over the years.
But at this time, the remorse and sadness were too late. Li Xue entered into marriage with another man in this way, and I was lonely at the graduation ceremony.
What was once a sweet memory turned into the cruelest lie, and I could no longer believe the word true love.
After the graduation ceremony, I sat alone on a bench by the lake in a daze.
Hey, man, what are you doing sitting here alone?A familiar voice interrupted my recollection.
It turned out to be my good brother Xiaolong. He saw my lonely appearance and patted me on the shoulder tightly: "I heard that you broke up with Li Xue?"If you fall out of love, you will meet a better one, brother, I invite you to have a drink!”
I smiled reluctantly: "Thank you, brother, I'll be quiet by myself first." ”
Okay, you can find me if you have anything!I'm sure to have a good drink another day!Xiaolong shoved a note into my pocket and ran away.
I looked down and saw that it was actually a ticket to the Red Bull Farm. Maybe I could get confused, so I decided to give it a try.
* Deafening, dazzling lights blur my vision. I swallowed glass after glass of wine on my neck, trying to find presence in the midst of the hustle and bustle. But when the effects of alcohol faded, I was still standing alone on the edge of the dance floor, my heart twisting like a knife.
Little brother, are you unhappy alone?My sister will chat with you. "A woman with heavy makeup came up to me, and a pair of hooked hands stuck to me.
I dodged her movements, shook my head helplessly, and left. It's not the life I want, it just makes me feel more empty.
Wandering aimlessly through the city alone, I finally realized that I had to pick myself up and keep looking forward. Li Xue chose to give up, and I didn't wait for her to turn back.
New city, new jobs, new people. No one here knows my past, and I can choose to forget everything that came before.