My name is Li Xiaofang, I am 41 years old and I have been married for 15 years. On the surface, I have a happy family, but the real feeling is not like this.
I was only 26 years old when I married Wang Qiang, who was five years older than me and a middle-level manager of a foreign company. In the early days of marriage, Wang Qiang was very kind to me, often took me out on dates, and gave me flowers and other small gifts every month. I thought I had found true love and lived happily ever after.
It's a pity that the good times didn't last long, and after 3 years of marriage, Wang Qiang was promoted and raised, and he began to be busy with his career, and he cared a lot less about me and my family. Usually working overtime has become commonplace, and sometimes I don't see him a few times a month. I was alone taking care of my young daughter, and I was very lonely.
Husband, can you take a leave of absence and go out with me and the baby for two days?"One day at dinner, I said cautiously.
Recently, the project has been very busy, how can I have time?Wang Qiang said without raising his head.
Just a day or two, the baby hasn't played with you for a long time. I didn't give up on asking.
Don't mention these things, I'm also tired from work, and I want to rest quietly when I go home. Wang Qiang said impatiently.
I had to silently lower my head, tears falling uncontrollably. Wang Qiang also ignored me anymore and ate and read the newspaper by himself.
That year, Wang Qiang was going on a business trip to Japan for a month. I thought that I would have a rare opportunity, so I decided to take my daughter to Hainan for a vacation to relax. I booked my hotel and plane tickets and happily prepared for this mother-daughter trip.
When I looked up, it was a boy who looked like he was in his early thirties, very sunny and handsome. He enthusiastically introduced himself as Zhang Wei and was a tourist who came to Hainan for vacation.
I hesitated, but declined his kindness: "No, I'll take the child, let's arrange the itinerary by myself." ”
It must be difficult to bring up children. As a bachelor, I can totally understand your hard work. Zhang Wei continued.
When I heard his words, my heart warmed. It's been a long time since anyone understands how I'm feeling, and it's a good feeling.
Why don't we make friends?I can take you and the kids to some of the nice places I know. ”
Looking at Zhang Wei's sincere eyes, I nodded and agreed.
In the past few days, Zhang Wei took us to the most beautiful beach in Hainan, where we swam and built sandcastles together, and my daughter couldn't miss it.
Mom, Uncle Zhang Wei is so nice!"At the end of a tour, my daughter said to me happily.
I smiled and nodded, and gently rubbed my daughter's hair. Indeed, the time I spent with Zhang Wei was the happiest I have been in years.
Zhang Wei will carefully consider my feelings, and I have the final say when I go to play today. This is a strong contrast to Wang Qiang, and it makes me feel like I am back in time when I was pursued in my youth.
One day, we went to the most famous coconut dream promenade in Hainan. Standing by the sea at the end of the promenade, we looked up at the endless sea.
If I could, I would like to live with you in Hainan like this. Zhang Wei said suddenly.
I looked at him in surprise, and he looked at me seriously: "Xiaofang, after this time of getting along, I found that you are a very good woman. I would like to be by your side for a long time. ”
Sorry, I shouldn't have said that. Zhang Wei saw my embarrassment and quickly said, "Let's be good friends." ”
I nodded, but I had mixed feelings. A boy I have only known for a few days can give my husband a care and understanding that he has not had in many years. It's a feeling of joy and a little bit of sin.
Back at the hotel, I called Wang Qiang to report his itinerary in the past few days.
Have fun over there?Wang Qiang's tone was still so indifferent.
It's not bad, the sea in Hainan is beautiful. "I'll be brief.
Well, you just have fun with your baby. I'll go back to China after my work here. ”
Well, you also pay attention to the body. ”
Hang up**, I sat on the edge of the bed and was distracted. Wang Qiang didn't even care at all, just exchanged information on official business. Do I really have to hold on to this empty marriage?
Xiaofang, what are you thinking?Zhang Wei's voice suddenly sounded in his ears.
When I came back to my senses, Zhang Wei came to my room at some point.
Zhang Wei sat down next to me and whispered, "Is it because of what I said before?"I'm sorry, you don't have to be stressed, I won't do anything to embarrass you. ”
Zhang Wei was stunned for a moment, and then hugged me happily. I hugged him tightly, tears streaming down my face.
From that day on, Zhang Wei and I were officially together. We spent the most romantic time in Hainan, and every day I felt full of vitality and the joy of being a woman for the first time in a long time.
But this happiness is also accompanied by a sense of guilt in the heart. Not only did I betray my marriage, but I also cheated on my daughter. Every time my daughter happily plays with Zhang Wei, I can't help but blame myself.
Mom, Uncle Zhang Wei is your best friend, right?"One time while eating ice cream, my daughter asked me innocently.
Wouldn't Dad be unhappy?The daughter continued.
Really?Dad never played with us and didn't laugh. The daughter pouted.
I picked up my daughter in distress, not knowing how to answer. I understand that I owe Wang Qiang an explanation, but I am not ready to face all this.
It's good for you to come back, there is an important project in the company during this time, and I really can't get out of it. Wang Qiang said.
I looked at Wang Qiang's hurried back, and my heart was half cold.
I opened the door, and Zhang Wei stood outside the door with a cautious smile on his face: "You're back, I can't help but come to see you." ”
How did you find here?"I was a little flustered.
Don't worry, I'm not going to tell anyone. Zhang Wei walked in the door and hugged me in his arms, "I miss you very much during this time." ”
I couldn't help but hug him. With Zhang Wei, I feel like I've been given a new lease of life.
In this way, Zhang Wei often came to my house to look for me. We are careful to keep this a secret. I was still conflicted, but when I met Zhang Wei, I just wanted to enjoy this rare time to the fullest.
What are you guys doing!"Wang Qiang saw that we suddenly broke out.
Zhang Wei and I hurriedly separated, our faces pale.
You negative man, I am so good to you, you actually steal people behind my back!Wang Qiang shouted hysterically.
I'm sorry, it's me who is bad. Zhang Wei lowered his head.
You get me out!Wang Qiang pointed at Zhang Wei and roared.
Zhang Wei looked at me helplessly, turned around and left.
You negative man, I am so good to you, you actually steal people behind my back!Wang Qiang shouted hysterically.
I choked up and said, "I'm sorry, it's me who is bad, I shouldn't have betrayed your trust." ”
You still know you shouldn't have betrayed me?I've worked so hard all these years, just for this family!It's good for you to complain every day that I don't care about you and find a wild man!Wang Qiang said angrily.
I fought hard for my family, but you said I wouldn't accompany you?Wang Qiang choked up, "I thought we understood each other." ”
Only then did I realize that Wang Qiang had also been trying to maintain this family in his own way.
Husband, I'm sorry, I was wrong. With tears in my eyes, I said, "I shouldn't have found another man, I'm so selfish." ”
Forget it, I'm too tired to have the strength to argue anymore. Wang Qiang said tiredly, "I just want to be alone and quiet." ”
After speaking, Wang Qiang turned around and left the house. I was left alone to cry.
In the following week, Wang Qiang didn't go home, and I called him ** and turned off the phone. I regret it so much, but I don't know how to make up for it.
On this day, Wang Qiang suddenly came back, his face full of exhaustion.
Husband, you're finally back!I said excitedly.
I thought about it a lot. Wang Qiang said calmly, "We are all responsible for this marriage." Divorce is not good for children, I am still willing to give you a chance. ”
Thank you!I burst into tears, "I vowed to be a good wife and mother again." ”
As long as you cut ties with that man, I can leave the divorce aside for a while. "However, I need time to recover." ”
Wang Qiang nodded, turned around and went back to the room to rest.
I know I still have a long way to go before I can gain Wang Qiang's understanding and trust. From that day on, I began to devote myself wholeheartedly to my family. I quit my job to cook my own meals every day, take care of the kids, and plan a weekend outing with my family.
Wang Qiang saw my change, and his face softened. I believe that as long as I take it step by step, our marriage can still be repaired.
I never contacted Zhang Wei again. Occasionally, when I think about it, I only have to apologize. I could have dealt with the confusion and loneliness in a more positive way, and I shouldn't have hurt my family.
I would like to thank Wang Qiang for giving me the opportunity to start over. From now on, I will strive to be a wife and mother that he and his children can rely on.