Repeating the same behavior only gets the same result, this sentence touched me very much, and I felt that I was in a state of impulsion all along.
I thought that if I worked hard, learned, and improved every day, I would grow and be different. The teacher said that the impatient growth is the disgust of the present self. I realized that I was in a state where I couldn't wait to change myself.
Then I am dissatisfied with myself at the moment, and the teacher said that the real growth of a person is that he has a sense of relaxation. What is a sense of relaxation?Whether it's growth or not, I accept myself, I feel that I deserve to be loved and love myself.
The teacher's words always made me think of my father, because my mother of origin hurt me, but my father is not in a hurry to do anything, take his time, he is mature and steady, secure, helpful, and the people in the village respect him very much.
Dad always gave me unconditional support and love, and Dad often said that don't be afraid when the sky falls, and Dad will stand up to it. Actually, my dad is really good, he takes my mom as a child and raises us well.
I sometimes have low self-esteem and dare not be myself, which is due to the fear of my mother, and sometimes I am very confident, which comes from my father's sense of security, so my personality is somewhat **. Then now that I realize this ** of mine, then I have to be aware of him, face him, and solve him.
I want to really live my own life, like is like, dislike is not like, really read Wang Yangming's book well, to deliberately work the unity of knowledge and action, this is my homework must be done.
During this time, my life has slowed down, and I have to think about what my most important task is at the moment.
I really feel that God has been guiding me, and when I was ignorant, I gave birth to the Great Treasure, and when I gave birth to the Four Treasures, I really paid attention to my inner and began to cultivate inwardly. Although this journey has been painful, I have always tried to protect my children as much as possible, giving them enough love and companionship, permission and relaxation. So far, the children's habits are not good in all aspects, but they have a healthy and sound personality.
I think I still have to take my time, cultivate and standardize the children's behavior and habits, and correct my own habits in all aspects, so as to make myself happy.
Life is a marathon, change behavior bit by bit, and I firmly believe that the future of me and my children will not be bad.
And I don't need to please anyone, I don't need to be affirmed by anyone, I'm an independent individual, and I make my own decisions about my life. When I can truly live my own life, my children will be more likely to live theirs. Finally, I have to tell myself that I am an adult and do not need anyone's affirmation.