If everything is cleared, I will still be the same
If you had to start over, would you choose a different path in life than you do now?”
This sentence from my friend made me think deeply.
If life could be "cleared" and restarted, would I make a different choice?
It's like the question "If you could turn back time, what would you say to your younger self?" is full of reflection and reflection on reality. I closed my eyes, my mind raced back, and I was back at those critical crossroads in my life.
If I choose to start a business after graduation instead of my current programming job;
So what will my life be like now?
Maybe I'll become a writer or a journalist, spend my days with words, write in a café, live in a publishing house, and live a free life;
Or I'll start my own new ** studio and hire young people to find that 18-year-old soul with me.
However, these imaginations were quickly dispelled by me. Because I know that's not the life I want.
I chose my computer major and my current programming job because I am eager to create value through **;
As for the entrepreneurial path that brought more uncertainty to myself, I finally gave up because stability and abundance were more important to me.
I continued to think, if I were to empty all my social connections, my network, would I still meet her? Will I still choose to be with her?
That is: I will still love her.
Because of the tranquility, warmth and happiness she made me feel, it is rare and precious in the world. I will love her and choose her in all timelines.
I will come to this world for her, meet her in the vast sea of people, and then hold hands and move forward.
If I had to do it all over again, I would still be me.
There may be subtle differences in which path you choose and who you meet, but the essence will not change.
Because those critical choices come from the truest voice in my heart.
The reason why I didn't choose media or literature was not because I was afraid, but because I knew rationally that it wasn't for me. I crave a stable and fulfilling life, and computer science can give me it all.
The reason why I didn't choose to start a business in the end was not because I was afraid of difficulties, but because I thought it was better to accumulate work experience for me now.
Of course, in the future, if the time is ripe, I will still give entrepreneurship a chance. But now, I have no credit for my decision.
As for love, once the most compatible souls in the world meet, even if fate forces them to separate, they will continue to look for each other in the cycle of life and life. This is a fateful arrangement.
I believe that if everything is cleared, my essence and choices will not change.
They are the most primitive core of me, the self of the self, the 10-year-old, 15-year-old, 20-year-old me, consistent.
Each of us has such a self, which has remained unchanged in the vicissitudes of time and space. It shapes our character, values, and life choices that make us unique individuals.
It also gave me the confidence to say that no matter what fate turns around, I will still be me.
Of course, I also agree that there are too many accidents in life.
For example, if you choose to continue working that day instead of leaving work early, you will not meet that special person;
For example, if you hadn't applied to a school on a whim in high school, your entire life trajectory would have been different.
But even with all the chances, our essence is still determined.
For example, I could have gone to work in City A after graduation, but I chose City B because of Yitong**;
Although the two cities are thousands of miles apart, life is the same.
Because what I want in my heart has always been a simple job, a warm home, and a close companion.
So, even if I happen to live in a different container, I'm still who I am.
This is the precious quality of the individual, and it is also the essence and glory of life.
We all pursue happiness on different life coordinates, but at the same time we have a common self.
That's why you and I, despite our very different circumstances, are still in the same spirit.
Even if I do it all over again, I'm still me, you're still you.