It was my first job after graduating from university, and I worked as an e-commerce customer service for a foreign company. After the novelty passed, the single repetitive work made me feel extremely bored. The only fun is to make do with the young man who has just come to the internship during the lunch break.
To be honest, I'm pretty boring in this job. Alas, it would be nice if I could meet a reliable girlfriend earlier, get married, have children, and live a beautiful life. "The young man yawned and sighed.
Hear"Get married"I couldn't help but be stunned. At the age of 34, I always thought that I could live my life independently. As a result, as I grew older and my friends entered the palace of marriage, I became more and more suspicious of the meaning of being single.
Can marriage really give people a sense of belonging and regain happiness? Thinking back to the grievances of breaking up with my ex-husband three years ago, my heart seems to be torn apart again.
Wang Lei is a male colleague I met in a foreign company. He was only 2 years younger than me, but he was surprisingly mature and steady. He was always unhurried to soothe my anxious and restless heart, and to calm my fragility with rational words. Over time, we came together.
A year later, I became pregnant. Although Wang Lei will support and take care of me throughout the process, his family is strongly opposed to this. They thought I was too old and in poor health to have healthy offspring. Out of workplace considerations, Wang Lei finally chose to listen to his family's advice and offered to break up with me.
I'm sorry, but I really can't really take responsibility for myself yet. Between us, the sooner it ends, the better. "Facing Wang Lei's slightly apologetic gaze, I cried bitterly, and my whole heart felt like it had been hollowed out.
After the separation, all the affairs at work were handed over to Wang Lei's side to co-ordinate, and it was difficult to completely cut off because they belonged to the same unit. Occasionally passing by his office, through the half-covered glass door, I can see the sweet bits and pieces of the past, as if it was still yesterday.
Just after giving birth, you are running around alone with your child, **shuddering? My body deteriorated, and my mind became confused. Fortunately, I also had a clue in the company, and after having a child, I also stabilized my emotions, and I just didn't let go.
No one understands what it's like to be betrayed by a loved one. The empty quilt, the cold embrace, and the snow on the way home in the evening hurt like a knife.
Life still has to go on. I regard my failures as a kind of growth, strive to create value in my job, and do my best to raise my children well. Gradually, the memories that had broken me down were no longer with me.
It didn't take long for Wang Lei to enter the marriage hall with a girl eight years younger than him, and gave birth to a pair of twin daughters. Sometimes I accidentally see him posting warm and beautiful family photos, and I feel heartfelt blessings in my heart. This is probably a sign of real letting go.
No one can live your entire life for you. Even if fate plays tricks on people's hearts, in the end, it is still necessary to rely on self-redemption. Now, I have completely faded away from the appearance of my wife in the past and returned to the freedom and casualness of being single. While taking care of my children, I also try to open up new channels in my life, such as learning a second foreign language, learning to drive, and so on.
I don't believe that a marriage can bind a lifetime, the important thing is to control yourself. Marriage is a safe haven for some, but for me, it may be destined to be a grass.
When I wasn't married, I thought it was the best place to go, but when I really appreciated the ups and downs, I found that freedom was the treasure I wanted the most. Today's life is extremely full and happy.