My name is Lin Fengzhi and I am 60 years old this year. As a retired worker, my pension is only 8,500 yuan per month. With this amount of money, I have to support myself and help take care of my son's family of three, which is not opened every day.
At 6 o'clock in the morning, I turned off the alarm clock on my phone, opened my eyes, which were still a little blurry, moved my tired body, and slowly sat up. My waist is not in good shape anymore, and every morning I wake up with a rattling sound that reminds me of my age.
I walked to the window and glanced across the street at my son's house. After a night, my daughter-in-law's belly seemed to be bigger again, although she was only 6 months old, her belly was already high and bulging, and she could see that she was a big fat boy. I sighed and said in my heart that this was their second child, and my burden would only be heavier.
I pulled myself together and went to wake up my 5-year-old grandson, Xiaohua, who was still asleep.
Little flower, it's time to get up! I gently patted the sleeping little flower.
Xiaohua snorted twice and covered the quilt more tightly.
Wake up, grandma will make you a delicious breakfast! "I raised the volume.
Grandma, let me sleep for another 5 minutes. Xiaohua muttered.
I smiled helplessly and decided to wash up first and then wake up the little lazy worm.
After washing, I went back to Xiaohua's room, and sure enough, he was still sleeping soundly.
Xiaohua, it's 7 o'clock, it's time to get up and go to school! I lifted the quilt and buried my head in the pillow.
After shouting and coaxing, Xiaohua sat up slowly, with a reluctant expression. I laughed and picked him up for the morning washing ritual.
After freshening up the flowers, I went to the kitchen and began to prepare breakfast. While scrambling eggs, I thought about the living expenses of my family. Although I have a pension of 8,500 yuan, I also have a lot of expenses such as rent, water and electricity, and I usually spend a lot of money on groceries and cooking. I sighed, I just bought a new pair of shoes for Xiaohua yesterday, and I'm afraid I'm going to overspend this month.
I came to the table with hot egg fried rice and soy milk, where Xiaohua was sitting and playing a mobile game.
Have breakfast! I said.
Grandma, I want to eat McDonald's! Xiaohua didn't take her eyes off the game.
McDonald's is too expensive, and the fried rice made by grandma is also delicious. Eat quickly, or you'll be late for school. I persuaded.
Xiaohua pouted and put down her phone and reluctantly ate breakfast. I watched him eat slowly, anxious but helpless.
Sending Xiaohua to school, I rode a shared bicycle home alone. When I walked into the house, I saw the clutter in the house, and I only felt more tired. After a morning of tidying up, I finally cleaned up my home. Just as he was about to take a breath, the doorbell suddenly rang. I opened the door, it was my daughter-in-law Li Fang.
Mom, let's go for a prenatal checkup, can you take care of the baby? Li Fang pointed to the little baby behind him and said.
I looked at the time, it was only 10 a.m., and my plan to take a break was ruined. But for the sake of my granddaughter, I didn't hesitate to say, "Okay, you guys go, baby to grandma!" ”
Li Fang handed me some food and drink, and hurried out of the house. I picked up my baby, and she was smiling at me with a pacifier in her mouth.
Is it okay for grandma to take you to play? "I tease her.
Grandma" The baby screamed sweetly, and my heart warmed.
I took the baby to the balcony and together we blew bubbles at the pedestrians downstairs. Crisp laughter echoed between the buildings, and I couldn't help but laugh along with her.
I was tired of playing, and the little baby fell asleep in my arms. I gently put her on the bed, and looking at her sweet sleeping face, I felt calm and content from the bottom of my heart.
After feeding the baby, it is late in the evening. I was telling my baby a story to put her to sleep when the doorbell rang again. The people who came were my son Lin Li and daughter-in-law Li Fang.
Mom, you've worked hard, we're here to pick up the baby and go home. Lin Li said.
What are the results of the prenatal check-up? I asked with concern.
The doctor said that it was normal, so let's pay more attention to nutrition. Li Fang replied.
That's good, eat more nutritious, stay up less late, and take care of yourself and your baby. I admonished.
Knowing Mom, you also have to pay attention to your body, let's go first. After Lin Li finished speaking, the family of three said goodbye and left.
I let out a long sigh of relief as I watched them leave, and another full day had passed. I had dinner alone, thinking that I would pick up Xiaohua from school later.
At 8 p.m., I rode my bicycle to the school gate to wait for Xiaohua. After half an hour, I still didn't see Xiaohua come out. Just when I was nervous, Xiaohua ran out with red eyes.
Grandmother. As soon as Xiaohua saw me, she threw herself into my arms and cried.
Little flower, what's wrong? Who bullied you? I asked anxiously.
Mom. A couple of bad kids beat me up and robbed me of my money. Xiaohua choked up.
I was very distressed, holding the little flower back and forth, thinking that I must report this matter to the school.
Early the next morning, I went to Xiaohua's school and found his homeroom teacher, Ms. Wang. I told her about Xiaohua being beaten and robbed, and asked the school to strengthen management and not let this happen again.
Teacher Wang said kindly: "Aunt Lin, we will follow up on this, and we will strengthen the education of students, so that everyone can learn to respect each other." Xiaohua should not be affected by this incident, I will tell him. ”
Although I was still worried, I was temporarily relieved to see Mr. Wang's sincerity. After coming out of school, I went to the vegetable market to buy vegetables, and I saw Master Yang, a fishmonger, from afar.
Master Yang, choose a few fresh grass carp for me. I said.
Aunt Fengzhi, just in time, the fresh grass carp that I just bought! "Master Yang picked a few fatty fish for me.
I took out my wallet, only to find that there was only one bill left in it, and I was shocked, so I quickly took out all the coins to make up enough money. When Master Yang saw me like this, he said thoughtfully: "Just owe me 5 yuan, remember to bring it next time." ”
I thanked Master Yang and walked home with the food. Along the way, I was distraught. A few days ago, I bought shoes for Xiaohua, plus the usual expenses, and this month's money will not be enough to spend. I'm really worried that I won't be able to feed my family next month!
After I got home, I called my daughter-in-law Li Fang and told her about Xiaohua's beating. Li Fang's reaction was beyond my expectations.
It's not that serious, it's normal for children to play around, so don't be nervous all the time. Li Fang's tone sounded a little impatient.
I held my breath and didn't say anything, but I was very sad. She didn't care about such an important thing at all!
At night, Xiaohua cried as usual and didn't want to do her homework. I coaxed him for a long time to barely finish it, and this kid's learning is really worrying me. What makes me even more sad is that Lin Li and Li Fang are also indifferent to this, and never urge Xiaohua to study.
At noon the next day, I went to the kindergarten to pick up the baby as usual. As soon as I entered the door, I saw another child's grandmother holding a large bag of supermarket snacks in her hand, sharing them with the baby. My heart is sour, I want to buy some delicious food for the baby, but there are already a few hundred dollars left at home, and I dare not spend it at will.
In the evening, Lin Li's family came to dinner. After eating, Lin Li said to me with a stack of bills in his hand: "Mom, the expenses for this month seem to be a bit big, let's save it and leave some money for the baby to pay for the pregnancy test." ”
My heart was completely cold, it turned out that they used me as a free babysitter and storage bank!
Hearing my son's words, I held back my tears and went to wash the dishes without saying anything more. While washing the dishes, tears flowed uncontrollably.
After washing the dishes, I sat alone in the dark in a daze. Suddenly, I had a thought: I really want to run away from home like this, so that my son's family can taste whether they can experience my hard work without me!
The next morning, the thought still haunted me. I decided to just do it and leave this breathless home! I packed my simple luggage, left a note for my son, and snuck out the house.
I wandered aimlessly through the streets, came to the park, and sat down on a bench. In front of me were children playing on the lawn, but my heart was empty. When I leave home, I'll go**? An old lady with no relatives, who will accept me?
Just as I was thinking about it, I suddenly saw an old couple walking slowly in the park with each other in mind. Although they faltered, the two of them had happy smiles on their faces, leaning on each other, warm and touching.
When I saw them, my heart suddenly softened. Thinking of the bits and pieces of raising children over the years, my eyes moistened again. Although they don't understand me very well now, after all, they are my flesh and blood, how can I leave them just like this?
So, I plucked up the courage to go home. When she pushed the door open, Xiaohua was sitting at the door crying sadly.
Grandma, you're back! I thought you didn't want me anymore! Little Flower threw herself into my arms.
Silly child, grandma will always be with you. I comforted him softly.
At this time, Lin Li and Li Fang also ran out, their faces full of self-blame and apology.
Mom, I'm sorry, but we didn't think it through, you worked hard. ”
I'm sorry Mom, we'll fix it, you must forgive us! ”
Seeing their repentance, the knots in my heart gradually melted. Perhaps, I should learn to be tolerant and understanding of young people's thoughts, instead of getting angry easily. We all need time to adapt and get used to each other in order to become a harmonious family.
From that day on, I learned to take the initiative to communicate with them and stop complaining about the hard work. I began to face life positively and enjoy the joy of being with Xiaohua and my baby. Life is short, I don't want to worry too much about my family, but I want to live in the moment and keep a kind and generous heart for the rest of my life.
Time flies, and in a blink of an eye, Li Fang is about to give birth. I started packing my things and getting ready for the arrival of a new life.
Finally, on a spring morning when everything was recovering, Li Fang gave birth to a pink and cute little boy named Xiao Ze. I was ecstatic and immediately rushed to the hospital to visit.
Mom, you're here! Look at your grandson! Li Fang smiled and asked me to pick up Ozawa.
I carefully picked up the swaddling Ozawa, and he stared at me with his big watery eyes, and my heart melted instantly.
Oh my God, what a cutie! I couldn't help but make him laugh.
Mom, I've worked hard for you, so I'll ask you to take care of Ozawa during this time. Li Fang said.
Okay, okay, with grandma, you can raise a baby! I readily agreed.
After leaving the hospital, I rode to the supermarket to buy a lot of items for newborns in preparation for Ozawa's arrival.
As soon as the time came, Lin Li and Li Fang took Ozawa home. I picked up Ozawa and began a series of hard work, such as feeding, changing diapers, sleeping before bed, and feeding at night. Fortunately, Ozawa is very well-behaved, and it also made me feel the happiness of being a mother again.
During the day, I also have to take care of Xiaohua and the baby, and I feel that my life is fulfilled in addition to being busy. I often make Ozawa laugh and enjoy it.
One weekend, Lin Li suddenly said to me: "Mom, you are working so hard, we decided to invite you to travel and rest!" ”
I was pleasantly surprised and asked, "Really?" Go to **? ”
Just go to Guilin Yangshuo, the scenery is beautiful, you will definitely love it! Lin Li said.
I couldn't be happier and finally had the opportunity to relax and see the beautiful scenery.
In this way, I spent a few days in Yangshuo in a relaxed and happy way. When I got home, I was more understanding and tolerant of my children. I no longer complain, but enjoy my peaceful old age. Life is short, I want to live in the present, rely on my family for my life, and spend the rest of my life with a warm and kind heart.
I went out to attend a "Learning for the Elderly" course offered by a university. In this class, I got to know many old people with young minds, and we learned to draw, chat, and play sports together, and our lives became colorful.
One day, Zhao Aiping, a painting teacher, said to me: "Fengzhi, you are very talented in painting, why don't you try to open a studio in our community and teach children to draw, which can also help the family, what do you think?" ”
I thought about it and thought it was a very good idea. The next day, I started to prepare and transformed the unused room of my home into an art studio. I distributed flyers from the studio nearby, and soon the first students were recruited.
Watching the children learn to draw with gusto, I felt a great sense of accomplishment and satisfaction in my heart. It also makes my life more fulfilling.
On the weekend, Li Fang said to me, "Mom, we want to invite you to Guilin for a short vacation to relax." ”
What the? Are you sure? "I was pleasantly surprised.
Of course it's true, this is our little heart, I hope you are happy. Lin Li also said.
So, our family spent a few days in Guilin happily. Take in the beautiful scenery, taste the local characteristics, and never forget to say hello to Ozawa every day.
This trip has increased a lot of communication and understanding between our family. I also understand that there will inevitably be misunderstandings in life, but as long as we learn to communicate, understand and tolerate, we will definitely become a happy and harmonious family.
Now I not only have my own small business, but I also enjoy every moment with my family. I feel that I have learned, done and enjoyed my old age. Life is short, I want to live in the present, with a kind and generous heart, through the last days.