When I was a student, I only read "The Siege" for the first time, and I only watched love, and I had no heart at all.
After work, I read "The Siege" again to realize the depth of the author's insight. Using words to piece together the characters, I realized that he actually created the real people and real things we are familiar with.
Now when I read "The Siege" again, I read a lot of helplessness, the truth of life, and I remembered a lot of people, and I began to think about my own body. The big and small things in the world, firewood, rice, oil, salt and tea, the life that each of us is in is the most solid and difficult city to cross.
1. The interests are very wide, and there is no mediocrity in the experience.
In the 30s, he graduated from a university in Beijing at that time, Fang Hongjian is not a mediocre person, but during his study tour in Europe, he changed 3 universities and studied everywhere, with a wide range of interests, no experience, and no one was focused on the degree, but in order to give an explanation to his family, he bought a fictitious German "Clayden University" doctoral degree certificate before graduation, and reluctantly returned to China with the financial support of his father-in-law. The 27-year-old Fang Hong gradually appeared with "the wind of the Indian Ocean, the beautiful sunset, and the night after the sunset......"On the cruise, on the return cruise, my heart is full of fantasies about the beautiful future. The teenagers in the ivory tower always believe that they are the most unique in the world, and their hearts are higher than the sky, after entering societyAfter all, the reality is coming: the problems of making a living, the choice of feelings, and the complexity of the workplace, all of which need to be dealt with with with all their might. Since the day he left the cruise ship, Fang Hongji's life has changed. If I had to use one word to describe it: mediocrity is the worst thing to say.
But there are many mediocre people in this world, and on the road of growth, who hasn't regretted it a few times and made detours? As Zhou Guoping said: Most people's hypocrisy is terrible, the reason is that it is mediocre, but it wants to pretend to be unique, so it is dishonest mediocrity. Just like many of us, he is not the only one who is trapped, and the worldly people are confined in this besieged city, and I am on my way into the besieged city.
2. Helplessness, frustration in the workplace.
Fang Hong gradually went to Sanlu University, when everyone else was a professor, he became an associate professor and was ridiculed by students because of his poor English. Unknowingly, he committed a taboo in the workplace, when someone is as incompetent as him, and someone buys a fake diploma from the same school as him. But they all mixed like fish in water at school, but he unknowingly offended his colleagues. When Fang Honggradually learned unexpectedly, Han Xueyu, the head of the Department of History, also bought his doctorate title with money, and he should not have made a casual announcement, but he accidentally exposed people's shortcomings. Han Xueyue was afraid that he would publicize it, so he planned and instigated the students to write a book to depose him. In the end, he left Samlu University in embarrassment. Fang Hong gradually saw Zhao Xinlin again, he didn't have the embarrassment of leaving in a hurry at that time, but flourished. "A person should be proud, and proud people have wonderful conversations, such as Xin Lin, who has been complaining all over the past year, and it is about to break out. It is expected that people may not like to listen to their own complaints, pay attention to control, like a dog wearing a muzzle, and the conversation is not pleasant. "All this is caused by different circumstances, people who are happy and proud in life are confident in their hearts, active in conversation, and sometimes have high-minded arguments, they are easy to jump out, easy to be funny, easy to witty words. And the party in a bad situation has low self-esteem in his heart, so he hesitates and does not dare to talk highly, like a dog wearing a muzzle. He is submissive and does not speak happily, because he has too many worries in his heart, and low self-esteem is all the reason for his silence. But this kind of depression involving self-esteem is the most unspeakable, so Fang Hongji's mood"Like a beast locked in a dark room, it hits, scratches, and hits the wall with all its might, but it can't find a way out. ”He relied on Zhao Xinlin for everything, and he was one of the few sincere friends who treated him sincerely. And Fang has always accepted everything he has arranged. Sun Roujia's marriage to him, as well as his work, he is constantly at the mercy of but powerless to resist. Then I saw that Su Wenjun in the past was also better off than himself, and Fang Hongjian and his wife's ** obtained a certain sense of superiority through practicing Su Wenjun, relieving jealousy and injured self-esteem. Fang Honggradually said: "Look at how vulgar she has become now, I don't know how elegant she used to go, I can't imagine that a year's kung fu will become mercenary, not like a lady at all" Sun Roujia said: "It's okay to be vulgar, I think she is too cheap." I have a husband, and I have to hook up with Xin Lin, what a lady is beautiful, I guess it's the daughter of a little wife. "I remembered that Lu Xun once created the image of Ah Q and drew the soul of the people, the so-called spiritual victory method, as if in this way, the couple can reduce some of their inferiority complex. One step behind, one step behind, one wrong step, one wrong step, and if you want to catch up, you can't. In the end, he fell to this point, unable to get rid of it and helpless.
The third general will get married, and he complains about the heavens and others.
Marriage was the turning point for him to really accept his fate.
The book devotes a lot of space to describe the married life of Fang Hongjian and Sun Roujia, from engagement, to marriage, to the two moving to Shanghai, and began to quarrel frequently over various trivial matters of life. Fang Hong gradually liked Tang Xiaofu, but because he was cowardly and didn't dare to fight for his love, he went around and married Sun Roujia, who he didn't hate, thinking that this was marriage. A ridiculous excuse for his cowardice: ".You don't need too much love to get married, and it's enough to get married if you don't hate each other. ”Otherwise, the final ending of the fairy tale is that the prince and the princess live happily together, and there is no more. In the adult world, after getting married, there is tea, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea, you are no longer alone, behind you are your family, or even two families. As a result, each other's shortcomings are magnified, and it seems that they can no longer see the passion of love. As a result, marriage has become a besieged city, people outside look forward to the beauty of the city, and people in the city are crazy to flee out, so people are always a contradictory individual. Two people who were reluctantly married hastily got married, rented a house, and the furniture was also given by my aunt, but fortunately, the house barely had the appearance of a home. As a result, the two quarreled over work. reminds me of what Lao She once said in "Camel Xiangzi": "To love or not, the poor have to decide on money, and the love is alone in the rich family." "When the basic material conditions are not solved, the reluctantly united marriage causes the weak foundation to be washed away by firewood, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea. At the end of the story, Hong gradually lost his job and quarreled with Sun Roujia because of his trip to Chongqing. In the end, his marriage and work fell into darkness, and when there was only a piece of chicken feathers left in his conscious life, he simply admitted defeat and stopped struggling.
We must study hard, and we must work hard to live.
The biggest problem in life is not falling into mediocrity, but not being able to reconcile with yourself. Fang Hongji's image is tangled and contradictory. He himself can't be insulated from hypocrisy, and will compromise with hypocrisy when he has to, but he subjectively hates hypocrisy, and is always ashamed of his fake diploma, and he also feels unacceptable to Su Wenjun and Sun Roujia after marriage, but he doesn't dare to face reality honestly. From the beginning of the story when he returned from abroad and appeared in a chic manner, to the embarrassing ending, Fang Hongjian can be regarded as a high-spirited young man, and finally became a middle-aged man who was slaughtered by life step by step. "There was hope in my heart, like wet wood, although it did not light a fire, but began to smoke, and it seemed that everything would be in order. ”People always have to start growing up by accepting their mediocrity, sometimes they lose to the helplessness that is difficult to distinguish, they can't see themselves clearly, and they easily surrender to the so-called fate, and slowly move towards mediocrity. Perhaps living aimlessly passively is a tragedy for most of us. The ending party said: "It seems that everything will have a way", and you must always give yourself a little hope and a little head, so that people can live bravely. To use the income from reading to live, we must also use the accumulation and thinking of life to read. Therefore, we must study hard, and we must live hard. 