If you want him but don't want to reach out to him, here are some ways to consider:
1.*Give yourself some time and space**: Sometimes, we need some time to process our feelings. Try to do something you enjoy and keep yourself busy, which will distract you and reduce your thoughts about him.
2.*Think about the reason**: Think about why you don't want to reach out to him. Is it because of the fear of rejection, or do you have other concerns? Knowing what you're thinking can help you better cope with the situation.
3.*Indirect contact through social **: You can follow him on social **, occasionally like or comment to let him know that you are following him, but without appearing too proactive.
4.*Get a mutual friend for help**: If you have a mutual friend, you can use your friend to find out about him indirectly, or ask a friend to convey your greetings.
5.*Improve Yourself**: Focus your attention on your own growth and development, and improve your charisma and self-confidence. This will not only make you more attractive, but also divert your thoughts from him.
6.*Wait for the right moment**: Maybe now isn't the best time to contact him. Wait for a suitable opportunity, such as if he reaches out to you, or there is a common event to attend.
Most importantly, respect your feelings. If you really miss him, you can also try to put aside your worries and take the initiative to contact him and express your true thoughts. Whatever you choose, be confident and sincere.