My wife had a fever and coughed badly in the middle of the night, he asked me to pour him some hot water, although I heard it, but my body didn't move, and he got out of bed in a huff.
In his heart, I will always be an unqualified wife and an unqualified daughter-in-law.
My surname is Deng 55 years old this year, people who know me well call me Cuiyun, and our daughter is 28 years old after 30 years of marriage.
I can't forget last year when I had a fever, I was burned all over.
I wanted my wife to take me to the hospital, but he wouldn't.
I wanted him to go downstairs to buy medicine, and he said:
I don't know what medicine you're going to take!
Then he closed the door and went out.
That day, I lay at home for a day, there was no food, no water to drink, and I was burned in a daze, but fortunately, my daughter was not at ease to come back to see me, so I was sent to the hospital, and I picked up a life.
My wife and I were introduced to each other, and when I met him, he didn't talk much, he was always very silent, and my wife's parents were intellectuals, so I was full of expectations at the beginning of marrying into such a family.
My hometown is not here, I came here because of the assignment of work, because my parents were not around, I thought about being filial to my in-laws, so that they would treat me as their own daughter, and I also have a dependence.
But I later discovered that the selfishness of human nature is inherited.
When I first got married, because we didn't have a house, we lived with my in-laws, my husband had a younger sister, who was still in college at the time, and I found that my sister-in-law always didn't like to go home, and rarely came back during the winter and summer vacations.
Later, I learned that this home does not have the warmth of home at all.
Although my in-laws are intellectuals, my indifference from the bottom of my heart makes people feel cold.
They speak to me in a commanding manner, the in-laws have a bad relationship, and they never say more than necessary words every day, and the two old people also sleep in one room, and their respective rooms are usually locked.
My wife almost didn't talk when I came home, I was sandwiched between my in-laws and it was difficult to be a person, I worked hard every day, bought vegetables and cooked after work, but even if I worked hard, they were still dissatisfied with me, and my in-laws would never give me a good look.
I gave birth to a daughter 28 years ago, although my in-laws said that they were not patriarchal, but they didn't care about this granddaughter at all, I had no one to take care of me during the month, and I had to rely on myself to take care of the children's laundry and cooking.
My in-laws are the kind of people who don't do anything except point fingers at me every day, like an old cadre, and in their hearts, no matter how hard and tired their daughter-in-law is, they should be.
My wife is probably inherited from them, and she is selfish and lazy.
Three years after giving birth to my daughter, I became pregnant unexpectedly again.
I didn't know at the time, I was in a cold sweat in the middle of the night, and I wanted to wake up my husband and take me to the hospital, but after he was woken up by me, he yelled at me for a while and fell asleep again.
The next day I went to the hospital in pain, and the doctor was frightened, he thought I was taking my life too seriously, and he said that my blood was running dry.
It was in this state that my mother-in-law later said that I was pretending to be sick and didn't know what to say to my wife, and at that time it was just about to be the New Year, my wife picked me up from the bed and asked me to prepare the New Year's meal alone.
My parents are not around, my daughter is young, my body is like that, seeing that no one in my mother-in-law's family feels sorry for me, I feel that I even feel cold in the bones, this disease caused my body to be very weak later, and I catch a cold and get sick at every turn.
Over the years, although I have a wife, I have lived almost alone.
My wife doesn't care about my daughter's study and life, he has never picked up his daughter for a day, he hasn't cooked a meal for his daughter, he even hides his salary from us, and never lets me know.
Every time my daughter starts school, it must be a time for us to quarrel as a husband and wife.
For hundreds of yuan in tuition, I had to lick my face, and my daughter had to cry for a while before he was willing to take the money out, and then I thought, why am I so hard to find such a husband.
Fortunately, my daughter has been sensible since she was a child, and under my education, she has become a self-reliant and strong child, and she was admitted to a key university and became a middle school teacher with excellent grades.
The year before last, my daughter married her colleague, and the young couple had a good relationship, a stable job, and a good income, so I finally let go.
I finally retired this year, and I thought that when my daughter gave birth, if she needed me, I would help take the child, and before that I wanted to travel to a few places, take a break, and see the outside world.
But who knows, my wife suddenly said that she wanted to take her mother-in-law back to support the elderly.
Since the death of her father-in-law 5 years ago, her mother-in-law has lived alone, although she is old, her personality has not changed, she speaks and acts domineeringly, she pulls down her face and scolds people when she disagrees, and even her sister-in-law is unwilling to deal with her.
Although my wife is not good to me and my daughter, he wants to be a filial son, and he can't help his mother-in-law complaining, so he decided to take his mother-in-law back to support the elderly, and this matter has not been discussed with me from beginning to end.
Because of this, I discussed it back and forth with my wife several times.
To be honest, I don't want to take my mother-in-law back to live, my mother-in-law has a strong personality, and my wife is a hands-off shopkeeper, I will become a nanny for their mother and son when I retire, and I have had enough.
Because of this, my wife quarreled with me several times, and once even wanted to beat me, but I dodged it in time and locked the door, he scolded me outside the door, and I leaned on the door and couldn't stop crying.
I think I've been a angry bag all these years, and my daughter who was raised by herself seems to be indebted to his family in the end, thinking of confinement, my mother-in-law's indifferent eyes to me, and my wife doesn't care about me, so I can't wait to divorce immediately.
But as soon as I thought of my daughter, she just got married, and I divorced, and I was reluctant to make her uncomfortable, and I was even more afraid that she would have a burden in her heart.
That day, my wife suddenly had a fever and asked me to pour hot water for him in the middle of the night.
Originally, I remembered it, but suddenly remembered that last year, I was burned at home and was about to fall into a coma, and my wife refused to take me to the hospital, and she didn't even buy me medicine.
He began to curse again, saying that I was not a good thing, how did I find such a wife.
The conscience of heaven and earth, I have been diligent and thrifty in my family and worked hard to raise my daughter over the years, am I sorry for him?
It was also that night that I suddenly figured it out.
My daughters are married, why should I be trapped in this loveless marriage, I have hands and feet, I have a retirement salary, and I can't live until I can't live?
The next day I moved out of the house and found a small house to live in.
Later, my wife came and asked me to go back with him quickly, and said that my mother-in-law had already moved in, and she was asking her daughter-in-law all day long, so many things waiting for her to do.
Looking at my wife when he said these words, his face was blue with anger, I couldn't see his eyes clearly through his frames, he was always selfish and indifferent, people couldn't feel the temperature, even if he was old, he didn't have any changes, plus that strong and domineering mother-in-law, I didn't want to stay in that home for a day.
When my daughter found out that I had moved out, she was very supportive and said that I was always welcome to stay at her house.
But I think about it, I don't need to rely on my daughter, I have some savings over the years, and I also have a retirement salary, I will live alone, I will find a job again when I am in good health, save some pension money for myself, and if my health is not good, I will easily enjoy life, eat what I want, and go **go**,For the rest of your life, stop pushing yourself and be kind to yourself.