Ten years of marriage, I think, I really figured it out. In the face of a man like Lin Jun, I have only two choices: endure or let go. This is the reality I have to face, there is no third way to go. Countless times, I have thought about divorce in the middle of the night, but every time I see my daughter's innocent eyes, that thought is like a knife that has been swallowed alive, and the pain is heartbreaking.
Every step of life, every decision, is predestined, and it is a test given to us by God. I tried to struggle, I tried to resist, but in the end, I chose to go with the flow. I know, that's the only thing I can do.
My parents often told me to let go of the resentment in my heart and not to get along with my in-laws. They gave it to my husband and I should be grateful. I'll admit, I couldn't let go. Every time I see my in-laws, I think of what they have done to me in the past, and that hatred always comes to my heart irrepressibly.
Today, I am here to tell my story, like reliving the past. The pain and tears in the memories made me unable to hold back. There are some injuries, how can it be easily forgotten?
I remember the day I was kicked out of the house by my in-laws, my father came from his hometown to talk to my in-laws. But the in-laws locked the door and avoided it. I saw my dad disappointed, and there was deep pain hidden behind the smile on his face. He took out 10,000 yuan and hoped that we could buy a house and live a stable life. Lin Jun swore at that time that he would let us live a happy life in the future. But reality slapped him hard.
That night, my father-in-law called Lin Jun and asked him to go back. When Lin Jun left, he promised his father that he would come back soon, but the result was that he did not return overnight. Dad waited for him all night on the embankment near his aunt's house and smoked all night. I've never seen my father so sad, he has always been our guiding light. But that night, I saw the sadness and confusion in his eyes. He was worried that I would get divorced, that I would not be able to withstand the blow, that the child in my belly would become part of a single-parent family, that I would feel wronged, sad, and sad.
It wasn't until the next morning that Lin Jun arrived in a hurry. Seeing him, Dad breathed a sigh of relief, and the worry in his heart finally landed. He didn't say a word of complaint, just silently accepted it all. Lin Jun's return means that our marriage can continue. I don't know what my father-in-law said to Lin Jun that night, but it certainly won't be a good thing. I asked but I was humiliating, so I chose not to ask.
In the middle of the night after drinking with Lan Ling, I was asleep when my phone suddenly rang. I was taken aback, thinking it was bad news coming from home. Ever since my mom was diagnosed with diabetes, I was so nervous every time my phone rang. I grabbed my phone and saw that it was my mother-in-law's. I breathed a sigh of relief and pressed the answer button, and my mother-in-law's voice immediately came from the phone: "Ling'er, are you sleeping?" "I glanced at the time on my phone, and it was already ten o'clock in the evening. How could I not sleep at this time? I really asked knowingly.
Mom, it's so late, what's the matter with you hitting **? "I have been married to the Lin family for more than ten years, and my mother-in-law has always called me by my name directly. This is the first time she has called me so affectionately, and she also took the initiative to call me **. So I concluded that she must have something to ask for. The mother-in-law sighed and said, "I'm just not sure, thinking about your father's goodness?" ”
Isn't my dad hospitalized? What's wrong with that? "I let out a long yawn in the dark. The faint light of the mobile phone screen looked particularly strange in this cramped room, and I quickly turned on the bedside lamp to ward off the fear brought by the darkness. "It's that his hospitalization makes people worry, he lives once a month, and if he continues like this, he has to survive to death. The mother-in-law said sadly: "As soon as he was hospitalized, I couldn't eat or sleep well, and I panicked when I thought about it." ”
This is my mother-in-law's style: she always thinks only about whether she eats or sleeps well, and never thinks about how much money her son has earned because her father-in-law is hospitalized. I sneered and said, "Boiling is also boiling your eldest son to death, what are you afraid of?" Look at how thin your eldest son has become, he has only been doing this job for a few days, and then quit. Mentioning Lin Jun's work, the mother-in-law immediately changed the topic: "You said that this old man is not good at recuperating from his illness, his temper is more violent than before, and he is in a hurry, so can he be cured in this way?" ”
It's what you're used to him! When he does it again, do you ** two big mouths to see if he dares to make trouble? I hated iron and said, "If you want to be like my Aunt Zhao, he will be honest for a long time." The mother-in-law cried and laughed and said: "Mom, how dare I beat people, if I don't beat me, it's good, and if I don't fight, I will always get sick, which will be beaten more often." Yesterday morning, I was scolded for cooking late and I was ...... table”
Isn't this what you're used to? What time does he ask to eat? You have to wait to get to the hotel! I said, "You say how good the society is now, and the Communist Party gives thousands of yuan every month, so you can live well, and you can just do it, and it will be nice to use yourself as a hospital." I snorted coldly and said: "It's good to make yourself a hospital, and if he doesn't make his son a wife, he won't give up, if I don't open a snack bar in the past few years, Lin Jun will earn that much."