Yesterday I met a couple at the subway station, the boy was wearing a tweed coat, wide-legged pants, square scalp shoes, and they looked good.
Girls are very cute types, taking pictures of boys.
This scene makes people think of beauty, of the wonder of life.
After work, I began to think in exhaustion, who is in love in this chaotic and noisy world?
I think it's probably like the scene I watched, people who are still on campus, enjoying their youth.
Their annoyance is that the English teacher's pronunciation is not standard, and there is no one they like.
And in the hearts of people who have really gone into the world, it is possible to survive, and better survival is more important than a relationship.
It's not that we're worldly and greasy, it's that people's energy is really limited.
This life is safe and everything seems to be under control; But this kind of life is also silent, and there is a lot less vividness.
I don't know why, since the end of the year, many people began to introduce me to boys, this state-owned enterprise, that person is 1.8 meters and so on, which makes me start to suspect that I was once again included in the list of being urged to marry.
I have no ill will towards others, everyone is an ordinary person, but I always feel a feeling of being pulled into other people's life plans and playing a role.
He doesn't want to know who you are or what you're thinking, he just wants to find someone who is the same, get married, have children, and live the life he wants, which is terrible.
Yesterday, my colleague was still saying that she had a good friend who completed three major events of getting married, having children, and buying a house within a year.
She asked the boy if he liked his wife, and the boy said, okay, she has a Beijing hukou.
This thing is very common and realistic, but this thing is also really ridiculous, so absurd that it turns life into a formula, and turns almost qualified people into a "tool" for life planning.
It seems that you don't need to love her or know her to live your life.
There may be nothing wrong with that, everyone may live in their own order, and mine is just different from others.
In March, the temperature in the north is still the same as winter, and the flowers have quietly bloomed somewhere in the south.
Every year I spend March, April, and May in anticipation of spring, and spring is long overdue in the city.
There is no patience and a lot less joy.
One day when I crossed the zebra crossing, I suddenly felt that the trajectory of human life is not a very long line, but in many moments when I really feel myself and feel love, many scattered points.
At the beginning of the year, the company took several ** together, and I also had a draft to complete, and I became very tired all of a sudden.
Listening to Party A's various ideas and requirements during work hours, I haven't encountered such a senseless thing for many years.
Because I didn't feel the keywords of Party A, the writing was not smooth, and I was in an extremely bad mood in those days.
It's not that I can't write the copy that Party A likes, but that I don't know what I want, and I don't seem to have anything to offer.
On the worst day, I had to submit my manuscript in the evening, and held an online meeting with Party A in the afternoon.
A lot of things were waiting there, but I calmly cooked myself a meal that was not delicious at all, and basked in the sun for a long time.
Lay back in a chair and watched a full sunset.
I saw the sun shining brightly into the world, I saw it dim little by little, and I saw the whole sky dyed with brilliant colors.
I remembered that the little prince said that he watched the sunset 44 times a day, and when a person is in a bad mood, he likes to watch the sunset.
Until the whole room went dark, until I realized that facing things head-on was the only solution than being in a bad mood, rather than being sad.
I turned on the computer and started writing, and the manuscript I received was completed smoothly.
I thought I would be happy when I got the payment, but I didn't.
I told Ms. Li that my mother was not happy when I got the money, and Ms. Li said that I was too greedy.
On those tired days, I told the busy star that I couldn't sleep well, and he said you have to adjust your mentality.
The busy star man also runs around every day, but he runs because it is his own company, which is different from me.
We often complained to each other, I said I was tired and sad and pointless, and the busy star said that he didn't know what he was doing every day, and he went on various business trips to different cities and had long meetings.
I don't know much about the finance of busy stars, but I think everyone has their own shackles.
My mind was confused, I never knew what I wanted, and I lived with my heart until now.
Busy star is calm and self-controlled, has experienced ups and downs, and has super execution, and he will always say things that make me not very happy, but may be true.
It's really amazing to think about the encounter between people, and everyone has his reason for appearing.
Busy stars always tell me that it's useless to think too much and grasp the moment.
After a difficult week of exhaustion and complaints from busy stars, Party A's manuscript was finally completed, and his own manuscript was also closed.
No matter what kind of day, only by getting through it can you gain something.
And in these days, what I am is the sunshine at the subway entrance, the sunset of the day, and I have not given up on myself.
At the beginning of the year, I bought two books, one is "I like this utilitarian world" by Mimon, and the other is "Write it down, and the pain will pass" by Woolf.
Two women who write in different eras, one writes in a depressed mood, and the other has recently made a fortune with short dramas.
I love both of these books, Mimon showed me that great people work hard and work hard, and Woolf represents a struggle, a struggle with the world and with oneself.
When I was unhappy, I re-read the "Sober Life" recommended by a book friend, and the book said:
In fact, the price of freedom in times of pain, once you are willing to pay that price, you will no longer be afraid.
All our fears are actually about avoidance, about people's own self-protection mechanisms.
But we can't grow without experiencing pain, and our internal friction is probably because we want to grow, but we don't want to suffer pain.
No matter what happens now, I will tell myself as soon as possible, please face it, facing it is much less painful than running away, and there will be gains.
Don't be afraid, those who are not afraid will always have a way out.
In a blink of an eye, this *** has been open for a long time, and it has been writing as much as it wants, so not too many people are paying attention to it.
I know that writing about hot topics will get traffic, just like my article about teachers and students, which has more than 130,000 views.
But when I think about it carefully, my original intention when I opened this *** was actually to find some similar souls and give some strength.
In the process, I also gained readers, and a few of them even became WeChat friends, which in itself is a reward for me.
Recognize the world with those who don't love you, and live well with those who love you.
In fact, many people are like this, like is like, and dislike may be difficult to turn into like, it depends on fate.
Life is very long, so long that there are joys and sorrows, and love is not possible; Life is short, short enough to do one thing you like, to love someone you really like.
I'm very happy to meet some people in the form of words, I have told some of the roads I have walked, I have had thoughts, I hope that you happen to see you, can see some things clearly, no longer go around in circles.
You are still welcome to come and talk to me, and you can tell your story.
Sartre said: We can daydream a lot, we can fail, we can cry, we can shine.
Life is a wilderness, friends, I wish you to have fun and grow wildly, it doesn't matter if you can't be a successful person, but you must be a happy person!