Title: Lost Affection, My Brother Blocks Me
Many relatives and friends have blocked my WeChat. Even my own brother blocked me, and I felt very uncomfortable in my heart. As a child, I lived with my parents until I was 15 years old.
Before I was 15 years old, my parents passed away unexpectedly, and I didn't have the opportunity to communicate with my grandparents, uncles and aunts. My parents didn't allow me to talk to them. So I didn't have any feelings with my grandparents. It wasn't until after my parents passed away that I began to reconnect with my grandparents, uncles and aunts. Ever since I was a child, I never had a sense of intimacy with my grandparents, and even when I sat at the same table to eat, I didn't have the same intimacy as a family, I just felt like a guest. There are two sides to my personality. The truest side is that he is irritable and irritable. 
In front of my mother's family, I am not good at expressing myself, and I will say whatever I hear. And I'm very sensitive, and a word or a look from someone else can trigger a lot of associations in me. Actually, I am a very eloquent person, and I have my own ideas, but I never dare to speak much in front of my mother's family. Because I am a junior and do not have the support of my parents, even if I have ideas, I dare not speak out, for fear that others will dislike me and talk too much. The relationship with my maiden relatives is average, and most of the time I feel like a guest, which is normal because I distinguish myself from them very clearly. The main thing is that I have low self-esteem, and I am really afraid that others will hate me. 
I started working at the age of 15 and didn't have contact with my family for several years, probably because of my low self-esteem. Later, when I got married, I had more contact with my family. But I still pay attention to etiquette, and I don't go to my parents' house empty-handed during the Chinese New Year. Almost all my relatives have their WeChat, and most of them were added by me on my own initiative. I used to like to post on Moments, seven or eight a day, but then my mother's family told me that there were too many Moments, so I quit this habit, and sometimes I didn't post one for a few days. When did I start knowing that my family was blocking me? When I first added my own brother's WeChat, he had already blocked me, and he hadn't let me see his circle of friends for years. Another time, I was bored and clicked on another family's circle of friends, and found that there was only one dot in it, and at that time I thought that my family had deleted me, so I deliberately sent an expression to find out that the message could be sent. I later found out that it was this family member who had blocked me. I was a little uncomfortable at first, but after a few days it got better. Then I found out that everyone in my family seemed to have blocked me, although they didn't block or delete me, but I couldn't see their circle of friends, and every time I clicked on it, a small dot always appeared. In order to be convinced of this, I even used my peer's mobile phone to check their circle of friends, and it turned out that she could see the circle of friends of those family members, but only I could not. I was really sad at the time, I had the same relationship with that peer as everyone else, but my family only shielded me, not her. Eight out of ten family members blocked me. I don't know why, but I don't think I've offended them. My circle of friends is also normal and open to them, why would they block me? I can understand that my own brother blocked me, probably because he was too young to let me see his circle of friends, but why did other family members block me too? Two days ago, I found out that another family member had also blocked me. At first, I was very concerned about being blocked, and now almost all my family members have blocked me, but I don't know what the problem is. 
I even used my peers' mobile phones to check, and their Moments were normal, and I didn't attack others or write down unsightly things.