One day in 2019, a special couple came to the obstetrics and gynecology department of the hospital.
The two looked haggard, their gray hair showed that they were not young, and the wife came to the prenatal check-up with a big belly, and the worry in her lowered eyes could not be concealed.
The wife is 52 years old, and the husband is 57 years old, and the two have done 3 test tubes and endured countless hardships in exchange for the child in the womb.
The people who saw the doctor together were a little curious, and talked to them, asking if they were second children, why they were working so hard, and so on.
Unexpectedly, his wife's tears fell suddenly: "I just want my son to come back......."”
The wife's name is Huang Limin, she is 52 years old, and her husband Fang Jiezhong is 5 years older than her.
But only they and the people close to them know that behind their persistence is a sad past.
At the age of 24, Huang Limin gave birth to a healthy boy.
Looking at the little baby in her arms, that wrinkled face, Huang Limin's heart beat a drum, she always felt that she was still a child, can she protect this little life?
Raising a child is a process of smiling and tears, and the two have been angry with the child, and there have been countless quarrels between each other because of education issues, but fortunately, this family has not been dispersed, and the family relationship between each other has become stronger and stronger.
The son is very competitive, although he also has a rebellious period, and he has also made his parents half angry, but he has never done anything bad, he is kind-hearted, sunny and cheerful, and he was admitted to a good school and has a good job after graduation.
After working hard for most of their lives, their son is also an adult, the two began to plan, and they have some savings after years of hard work, they have been living in a small building in the countryside, and the house in the city is left to the son as a marriage room.
Just when the family thought that life would be so ordinary and happy forever, fate gave them the heaviest blow.
In the summer of 2016, their son, who was held in the palm of his hand, lived forever at the age of 25.
The cause of death was a sudden illness, and the son walked quickly and did not suffer too much, but it also made the old couple unprepared.
The two of them finished the funeral like walking corpses, and sent away one after another relatives and friends who came to mourn.
Everybody said, don't be sad, look forward.
Both of them said yes, but in fact, their hearts were gloomy, and they couldn't see the way forward for a long time.
At the end of the year, the new house in the city was renovated, and the two moved in.
The 150-square-meter house was originally just right for three people, but now only the husband and wife are left, and they feel extremely empty and desolate no matter what they stand in.
Huang Limin stubbornly decorated the room according to his son's preferences, put a single bed, and laid out the sheets of his son's favorite pattern before his death.
Huang Limin would clean every day, sometimes sitting all day, as if his son hadn't left yet.
There are still many sons' belongings that can't be put down, so the two of them moved their things back to the small building in the countryside little by little, and their son's **, used textbooks, and toys played with ......Each one has his son's memories, and every time he cleans up, the two of them will hold their son's belongings, reminisce about the good old days, and cry out loud with a smile.
Huang Limin, who didn't know much about surfing the Internet, learned to use the software that young people love to play, and also learned to shop online, using his son's ** account, just to be able to leave everything related to his son.
Huang Limin will also log in to his son's chat software from time to time, look through the circle of friends he has posted before, and look at the smiling big boy in **, crying and laughing.
The son's popularity is very good, some friends are out of town, and they don't know about his death, seeing that his avatar is lit up, they chatted and greeted, Huang Limin sent it word by word, telling them that his son had passed away.
It was a very painful process, but Huang Limin and her husband had to repeat it countless times a day.
It seems that with the death of their son, the couple never walked forward again, and stopped at that time together.
In such desperation, someone came to persuade them to adopt another child, and they could be regarded as companions in the future.
The couple disagreed at first, thinking that it was a betrayal of their deceased son, but as time passed, their attitude gradually loosened, but they didn't want to adopt, but to have another one themselves: "I just want to be lively and find a little sustenance for life, otherwise, I'm afraid we won't be able to go on." ”
The two first went to the hospital for an examination, although because of their age, their health is not so good, but they can indeed have another child, but the doctor does not support the idea of the two: "You are already in your 50s, even if you successfully give birth again, you may not be able to accompany the child to adulthood." Isn't this harming the child? ”
Yes, both of them are over half a hundred years old, if they choose to give birth, it is extremely dangerous for their mother Huang Limin, not to mention whether they can conceive, just for all kinds of accidents that may occur during pregnancy, doctors advise them not to take risks.
Even their closest friends and family members are persuading them that it is not worth it.
But I just can't hold on. Huang Limin's face was haggard and his eye sockets were sunken: "I need a sustenance, a reason to live." ”
But sometimes they are also worried and afraid, afraid that the son under the Yellow Spring will blame them and blame them for betrayal.
One day, Huang Limin had a dream, in which his son was still tall and handsome, he walked towards her with a group of children and hugged a child for her.
Huang Limin refused to ask for it, saying that it was time for his son to give birth to one, not for his mother to ask for another one.
But the son said gently, "Mom, it's all the same." ”
After waking up, the tears in the corners of Huang Limin's eyes have not dried, and the pillow towel is also half wet, maybe his son is also worried about them, and he also knows the guilt in their hearts, so he hopes that his parents can really come out.
So, despite everyone's dissuasion, the two resolutely embarked on the road of seeking a child.
After careful examination, the two no longer have the conditions for natural pregnancy, and if they want to have a child, they can only do IVF.
In order to restore the body to the best state, the two quit all bad habits, Huang Limin used to like to drink two sips from time to time, but now he has also quit, and his diet and rest are also strictly in accordance with the ** arrangement, originally he only liked to eat meat, but now even if he pinched his nose, he must eat enough vegetables and fruits every day.
Huang Limin also has to eat a lot of nutrients, and she often has an electronic scale at hand, and what she eats every day must be accurately measured, and she will be extremely nervous if she loses 1 gram.
Once everything was ready, the first test tube began.
When the needle for egg retrieval came in, the expectation in Huang Limin's heart made her overcome the pain, she understood that this was a necessary stage on the road to seeking a child, even if the pain was cold sweat, she did not flinch.
Despite their efforts, the first test tube failed, the second embryo transfer was successful, and the two were only happy for two months, only to find that the fetus was stopped.
Two surgeries and a uterine curettage made the already haggard Huang Limin even weaker, and Fang Jiezhong, who felt sorry for his wife, had the idea of giving up and tried to persuade his wife, in fact, the two of them supported each other and could live a good life, but they were firmly refused.
The psychological blow and physical pain kept tormenting Huang Limin, and she cried in the middle of the night countless times, but she never thought of giving up, the years are unforgiving, and the time left for her is running out, and she doesn't want to regret it when she thinks about it in the future.
In January 2019, Huang Limin underwent a third test tube, and this time he was successfully implanted.
But the couple still didn't dare to take it lightly, and the second test tube was also implanted, but the fetus suddenly stopped, which made them lose for a while, and they were more careful about the third time.
Her husband is a village cook, and the New Year and New Year are the busiest times, and she can't leave at all, so Huang Limin will protect the fetus alone, and she will have to check every two days with fear, but if there is a value that is not normal, she can't eat, and she keeps talking to the little life in her belly before going to bed: "Baby, come on." ”
Perhaps it was because she heard the couple's heart, the child was very competitive, and she came to the 28th week of pregnancy safely, when the doctor told her that the fetus had been stabilized, Huang Limin's hanging heart finally let go.
Although she had a pregnancy experience, when she had a pregnancy reaction, Huang Limin was not much better.
Back pain and leg pain are the norm, morning sickness is also a common thing, and when the month is older, Huang Limin even turns over and has to wake up her husband to help, which can only be completed with the cooperation of the two.
All this is very hard and torturous for two people who are over half a hundred years old, but the couple is willing to do it.
The arrival of this child brought a ray of hope to the dark life of the two, and they regained their motivation and their days were rushed.
In the 8th month of pregnancy, Huang Limin also caught up with a fashion, and took a set of pregnancy photos with a big belly, wanting to leave some testimony for her magical experience.
This woman, who has worked hard for her family, husband and son for half her life, regained herself, painted long-lost makeup, put on a special cheongsam, and seemed to return to her high-spirited youth.
Looking at the radiant self in **, Huang Limin found that there was light in her eyes again.
On September 25, 2019, Huang Limin and her husband's baby couldn't wait to come to this world.
When giving birth, Huang Limin could only fight alone, and her husband Fang Jiezhong stood outside the operating room, so anxious that he turned in a circle, even more panicked than when his son was born.
3 hours have passed, the fetus still has not been born, and if it drags on, adults and children will be very dangerous, the doctor has just prepared to transfer to cesarean section, and the child was born, a healthy girl.
Holding the little baby of more than 5 pounds in their arms, the couple were in tears, and they didn't dare to blink when they looked at the child, for fear that everything in front of them was just an ethereal dream.
The daughter's nickname is "Panpan", which is not only the couple's expectation for the arrival of their child, but also their expectation for a new life in the future.
After nearly 30 years of becoming parents again, the two did not take it much at ease.
Considering his wife's health, Fang Jiezhong specially contacted a well-evaluated confinement club, which has a special confinement lady to take care of, so that the baby and the mother can rest well.
The confinement lady is very professional, feeding every 3 hours, burping after feeding, always pay attention to the temperature of the room, the baby's clothes are always clean, and the crying will not be too long.
Huang Limin's diet plan.
The care of the mother has not been pulled down, and psychological counseling, massage, and three meals a day are balanced and ......Everything is so comfortable, but Huang Limin only lived for a month and then made a fuss about going home, originally planned to stay for two months.
Fang Jiezhong was a little puzzled, thinking that the confinement lady did not take good care of it, Huang Limin hurriedly explained: "The confinement lady is too good to the baby, and if she stays there, the baby's little liver will be 'stolen' by the confinement lady......."”
Maybe it's because she has lost a son, Huang Limin cherishes this hard-won daughter very much, others think it's a robbery at a glance, and the confinement lady takes good care of her, but she is so flustered that she always feels that her position is going to be replaced.
After returning home with the child, Huang Limin couldn't sleep well for several days, and had to get up several times a night, for fear that something would happen to her daughter.
When feeding, Huang Limin insisted on breastfeeding, thinking that it was more nutritious and the child's resistance was good, but under the advice of the doctor, it would also be paired with nutritious milk powder, as long as it was good for the child, she did it all.
Fang Jiezhong knew that his wife's state was not right, but he couldn't bear to dissuade him, his son's departure was like digging up a lump of flesh from the hearts of the two, especially Huang Limin, who was pregnant in October and gave birth to her son, was even more sad.
So just let her go, if only she could come out.
Fortunately, Huang Limin is not extreme, all her starting points are for her daughter, without too much protection, nor blindly believing in some crooked heresies, insisting on scientific feeding.
At the beginning, his sons were raised, but now he treats his daughter a lot more carefully, and even when Fang Jiezhong holds the child, his posture is a little wrong, and he will be reprimanded by her.
But after all, it is an advanced age to give birth, Huang Limin still has some sequelae, cloudy and rainy or slightly tired, it will be unbearable pain, and some other small pains and minor diseases need to be maintained by medication.
As the child grew up, in a trance, Huang Limin seemed to see the shadow of her son from her daughter: "Look at Panpan's forehead, it is the same as her brother." ”
Panpan likes **, and is more sticky to his mother, these are exactly the same as when his son was a child.
Huang Limin was sad and happy, sad that his son was not around, and happy that he was fortunate to have a daughter.
When Panpan was 17 months old, Huang Limin and her husband came to their son's grave.
In the big bags and small bags he brought, in addition to some of his son's favorite foods before his death, there was also a letter written by Huang Limin.
She stroked her son's tombstone and read the letter softly, telling her parents about the pain and despair of her parents in the past few years, as well as the longing for her son.
At the end of the letter, Huang Limin wrote:"Don't worry, son, dad and mom and sister are trying to stay alive. It's just that I want to touch the face of ** again, even once. ”
Now, in addition to taking care of their children, the couple is also insisting on working, they hope to be able to leave their daughter some more family funds before they grow old, so as to ensure that she has no worries about food and clothing, and the two are also insisting on exercise and healthy eating, hoping to be able to accompany their children for a few more years.
For Panpan, the couple did not have too many requirements, they only wanted their daughter to be safe and happy, and to be 100 years old.