On February 27, the 29-year-old female writer "Blind Book" passed away.
In the afternoon, the blind mother's mother posted a post confirming the incident.
When it comes to blind books, you may feel unfamiliar.
But when it comes to "I Won't Like You" and "Lenz's Law" written by her, it should be no stranger.
Since 2021, she has been battling the disease constantly, and this battle has been more than 2 years.
But she is still strong, brave, optimistic, and kind.
In April 2021, the family members of the blind book said that the blind book had been seriously ill since April 23 and was no longer able to eat and sleep for a long time.
Subsequently, on May 15, the blind book confirmed the incident.
She said that because she had been working all night for a long time, she had a high fever, which she thought was a small cold.
It wasn't until she had a fever for two weeks, her throat was inflamed, and she felt uncomfortable that she went to the hospital to hang water.
When I came back, I ate the porridge and eggs I ordered from outside, and I didn't know that it was out of control.
All kinds of pain, angina, stomach pain, back pain.
In her words, she describes the pain: "It hurts more than I have a baby." ”
All kinds of vomit, black, yellow, green, what you eat, at least 15 times a day.
And when she went to the hospital for various examinations, she said, "I can't remember how many times I did CT." But to no avail.
It can only be infusion in the hall, and this infusion is a day and a night.
And Blind Shu found that she no longer had the ability to take care of herself, because she could no longer walk, and the flesh and blood meridians of her body hurt as if she had been peeled.
In the end, it was not until I asked the best experts in gastroenterology for help, and after some examination, I was given the best thing to do, prescribe some spiritual medicine, and go home to raise it.
In other words, the pain of a blind book is imagined.
In the end, the blind mother had no choice but to take her back to her hometown.
Answer the reason in the words of a blind book: "There are people in the hospital in my hometown who have resources, and all kinds of arrangements are fast and high-standard. ”
After two or three days of inspection, there are still no results, and in the end it can only be regarded as "food poisoning"**
In the following days, Blind Book has been planning for a new book, regretting the break, but she does not know that she will always be accompanied by pain in the future.
As the doctors frowned, overthrowing the ** of poisoning and gastroparesis; With the pain in his feet and the fact that his hands began to go numb and stiff, the doctors met again.
This time, they suspected that Blind had contracted a rare hematological disease, and they heard that there were fewer than 500 cases in the world.
The blind book is stupid, in her words: should she go buy a lottery ticket?
Maybe it's the psychological effect, from then on, the pain of blind books is even more unbearable.
She said: "Every night it hurts until the ghost cries and the wolf howls, and she can't fall asleep until she is given a painkiller injection." ”
At that time, it was still a sin for her to take painkiller injections, and she even forced herself to quit as much as possible.
However, two years later, I don't know how many painkillers I have given her, first tramadol, then durandin, and later four tramadols and 2 durandin at a time, which can barely suppress her pain.
At that time, she also joked to herself: "The first time someone used painkillers as ** medicine, doctors were afraid." ”
During that time, with the efforts of her husband and mother, although she gritted her teeth, she also learned to make fun in suffering.
On Weibo, Blind sometimes ridicules his pain, and sometimes mocks the characters he writes.
Occasionally, she also shares some interesting things about her family.
For a while, she said that her husband and mother only let her eat porridge, and she felt that it was too bland, so she quietly told her father.
As a result, my father tried to secretly buy her chicken legs, or cook broth for her in his own laboratory.
Every time, she and her father sang and separated her husband and mother.
And she will eat the meat quickly and then pretend that nothing happened.
"It's like being a thief, but hiding from meat during that time is the only pleasure in the ward," she said. ”
For us ordinary people, eating meat is a simple thing, but when it comes to blind books, it has become a luxury.
Blind Book seems to be very strong and optimistic, but as the disease recurs again and again, the pain worsens, and Blind Book mentions "death".
She said: That day she listened to her mother complain why she was not strong, she couldn't overcome nausea and vomiting and eat something.
At that moment, she really wanted to jump from the 23rd floor, she only needed to move a chair, she only needed to step over the security net, and she could step out and become a corpse.
But her husband's words: "I'm learning to paint with my daughter" pulled her back.
In fact, when she was suspected of having a rare disease in the hematology department, she had thoughts of suicide.
At that time, she knew that she had this disease, and with the pain of the whole night, she thought of using death to relieve herself.
It can be seen that her husband checked a lot of extranet materials and literature for her illness, observed the law of her pain, and analyzed the metabolism of this disease.
I repeatedly communicated with the doctor to change the dressing, and even wrote a long analysis in order to convince the doctor.
After her husband returned to his hometown, he took care of her in the hospital day and night, barely sleeping, and when he was awake, he was thinking about her illness.
I remembered again that before my husband came back, when the two of them sent **, he had red circles under his eyes:"I went to the place we frequented today, and the restaurant we frequented closed down. ”
He immediately added, "However, we still need to dig more places to go together." ”
How could she bear to leave.
It can be seen that it was her relatives who insisted on holding the blind book and gritting her teeth during that time.
But in July 2021, the blind book was opened.
She said: She shouldn't live for others, in fact, her parents, husband, and daughter have no way to become a factor for her to stay, she can only live if she wants to live.
However, it didn't take long for her to lose her words.
From her Weibo, it can be seen that she seems to have committed suicide, was found by her family, and sent to the emergency room.
She said that her suicide note was written, but was stopped.
In the end, he could only joke helplessly: "Let's be alive, the bed in the rescue room is really difficult to sleep, and the condition of the observation room is also very poor." ”
Since then, Blind Books seem to have really learned to stay strong.
Whether you have been diagnosed with macroperistalsis syndrome or have been diagnosed with an extremely rare form of systemic nerve damage that damages the vagus nerve and central nervous system.
She never thought about suicide again, and even, in her last days, volunteered to donate her organs.
Write at the end
The beautiful ** writer left with a lot of talent.
Her loved ones are grieving, her fans are grieving, and we are sad.
But maybe for her, maybe it was a relief.
After all, the pain of painkillers is difficult for us ordinary people to experience.
Although the blind book is gone, she has warned us countless times:Don't stay up late, don't eat takeout, and be sure to pay attention to your body.
This is a warning at the cost of our lives, and each of us must rest assured.
I hope everyone will go to bed early and wake up early, and be in good health.
I also hope that Blind Book is just like what some netizens commented: "She was reborn in another world, and this is just the first half of her life." ”
Author Caviar Leaves.