When I put this picture here, I suddenly remembered the sentence, "You can never wake up a person who is pretending to be asleep". Perhaps, or maybe I didn't want to call him anymore. Even if you want to sleep for a long time, you don't want to wake up.
It's been a long, long time since I've updated, here, a certain book, a certain blog. All platforms. Some of them even forgot their passwords.
Yes, I'm in a hurry, I'm anxious while rushing the manuscript, I'm anxious to continue to rush the manuscript after I'm done, I'm rushing to eat the manuscript, what is the anxiety for, probably because I don't know why, so I'm anxious.
Everyone is saying that in the post-epidemic era, the economic downturn is becoming more and more difficult. Illustration is also, before the recession of education and training, a large number of painters stabilized their jobs offline, and then the entire industry began to cut leeks frantically, creating a beautiful illusion of freelancing attracted a large number of mothers, college students, and workers to follow the trend to learn to paint, and then there were a lot of novice painters, beginner painters, painters who did not get started, and painters who wanted to get started without a door.
Now that AI is here again, everyone thought it was quite optimistic, but then didn't there be a lawsuit recently, a copyright lawsuit, and AI won. The back waves of the Yangtze River push the front waves, and I don't know when the front waves will die on the beach.
But I don't have anything else but to paintEven the matter of painting, there is nothing to say, the talent is limited, and he takes orders conscientiously, drawing day and night, but he just maintains a life.
Yes, recently negative emotions have begun to sweep my brain again, I am afraid of being tired when I roll, I am afraid of death when I lie down, I will feel that no matter how hard I work, I will feel that no matter how hard I work, I am afraid that this day will not go on when I lie down and rest, I can't roll up, I don't dare to lie comfortably, I am always in a dilemma, and I will always feel guilty.
Lao Wang said that he is also working hard, he is very hardworking, yes, more industrious than me, sleeping with me at night, getting up three hours earlier than me in the morning, but hard work can not get rich, motivated, not as good as incense.
When I was young, whether it was our parents or teachers, all adults taught us that if we studied hard Xi we could get high scores, we would be able to get a good ranking, and we would be able to go to a good university, so I am very envious of Long Yue now, her efforts are at least meaningful.
In the first half of the year, I played the game and experienced the diversity of human beings, there are big brothers who spend a lot of money, and there are also white prostitutes who can't pay a penny, this is the case in the game, and it is like that in reality. Some people find a sense of accomplishment in the game world, some people escape the embarrassment of the real world, and some people find solace in the game. The longer I play, the more I feel that the game is the same as life, and there is no meaning and I don't want to give up.
But after giving up, I found that it was much easier.
That day, Lao Wang told me that someone I knew died suddenly, and the first thing I thought of was, oh, he was relaxed.
It snowed so much in Zibo today, and the white expanse was very beautiful. I wrapped myself tightly and stepped on the footprints of a village, and it creaked, and it sounded so good.