Synopsis: I am young and beautiful, and my ex-husband often drinks bad wine. I felt that my ex-husband was not worthy of me, and eventually divorced. I felt that the divorce was right, but soon after the divorce, I couldn't walk due to spinal cord lesions and was hospitalized for more than a month**. At the age of 28, I felt that life was boring, hopeless, and meaningless.
I am 34 years old. In 2019, I came into contact with Bigu culture, and it has been many years now.
At that time, because of the acne on my face, I went to see my face, and I met an older sister, who had seen me before, but she hadn't seen me for a few months, and when she saw me, she said, "How did you become like this?".It's ugly and decadent. ”
At that time, I had just been discharged from the hospital and could not walk very well. It's the feeling of a little swan falling into a mud pit.
She recommended to me: "You're fine, listen to this class more." It can regulate your mood and calm your mind a little. "She didn't tell me she was from Bigu.
They didn't say a word to me, and I felt so pitiful that tears fell. During that time, when people asked me why I was sick, I would cry.
After I got divorced, I had to work hard and work hard to earn some money for a few years. As a result, it didn't take long for me to get sick, and the illness was also very strange, that is, myelitis, spinal cord lesions, and suddenly I couldn't walk.
A normal person, and a beautiful girl, couldn't walk all of a sudden, which hit me very hard. I was only 28 years old at the time, and I was still very young.
When I was sick and hospitalized for more than a month, I was half-asleep and half-awake, I didn't admit that I was sick, I always felt that it was a dream. When I went home and slept at night, I closed my eyes and wished it was a dream, and when I woke up from the dream, my illness would be cured.
Later, I recuperated at home for a few months, and I didn't talk much to my parents, so I was very depressed. I'm annoyed by anyone talking to me, I can't hear anything, I can't hear it. People are also very decadent, feeling half-dead and half-disabled when they walk. I feel that life is boring, life is hopeless, and there is no point in living.
I was particularly fascinated by the lectures, except when I fell asleep at night, when I was eating, and when I had nothing to do.
I didn't accept it before, I was very frustrated and desperate. Why am I so unlucky?No one is sick, so why am I sick?I'm such a young and beautiful girl, I have this disease, what should I do?His legs were still half-paralyzed, and he walked with a limp as if he had a cerebral hemorrhage.
Later, I recognized and accepted my illness, and slowly I accepted this leg. Even if it doesn't return to its original appearance, it doesn't affect my walking or movement, except that it feels a little different, and it doesn't affect my life. That's good, it's the most perfect, the best, and I'm very happy.
I live my life normally, I work normally, I do what I have to do, I don't think about it anymore.
I probably. I was sick in February and March, I was able to walk before, and I knew that I had to exercise every day, and I would go to the park to exercise every day after work, and I felt that my legs and feet were not good, so I walked and exercised more.
After learning Xi Bigu culture in June and July, I walked every day after work, and the time was not long, and now I walk for about 40 minutes every day, and sometimes I can walk for an hour when I am in a good mood. When I go to work during the day, I also take time to walk for half an hour. We work lightly, sometimes going out for half an hour for a walk.
My legs are neurological, they feel very tight, I walk like a stick, and my legs don't look like my own. After walking for more than a month, I feel less energetic and much more relaxed than before.
Knocking on the teeth, Tianxingjian, and listening to lectures, I have done a lot of these things. After doing this for three or four months, I gradually felt that I could cheer up my life and work, and I felt that life had a head. I couldn't see the light before.
I was divorced in 2016, and after I got sick in 2019, I came into contact with Bigu culture and started doing my homework. In 2019, the village chief gave a lot of lectures, and at first I couldn't understand it, so I listened to what he said about "bad women" and "good women".
I feel pretty good about myself, I can go up to the hall and down to the kitchen, and I'm good in every way. At that time, I had just divorced, and I felt that the divorce was right, the child's father was not worthy of me, and I was not a "bad woman".
I used to keep my eyes on others and think it was all his problem, but I have no problem, I am very perfect.
Later, I felt that the problem was still with me, and I began to change myself, and slowly walked back to normal, and I walked easily.
If you bloom, butterflies will come. It didn't take long for me to attract my significant other, who is my current husband. He pursued me with such a heart and mind that I felt that I was also a boy I liked.
When I was sick, I felt that I was wasted, and I would marry a ghost in the future, who would I marry?Who would want a sick seedling, I feel like a drag oil bottle, which man can look up to me.
When my husband pursued me, the first thing I did was tell him about my illness to see if he could accept it. He didn't care at all, he didn't even ask me how I was sick, it didn't matter to him.
We met in the second half of 2019 and got married in May 2020 less than a year after we met. My husband is unmarried, and I am second married.
My husband is 1.87 meters, tall and handsome, still a young man, I feel that I am taking advantage of marrying him, he proposed marriage, and I agreed. I think he's very good, I'm afraid that if I don't catch such a good man, he will be snatched away by others.
Now we are living happily ever after. He was very kind to me and loved me very much.
I used to be strong, self-righteous, everything was my own right, and I never thought about others. I used to treat my child's father like this, I had to do it with him whatever he said, but I looked down on him with all my eyes, and I always felt that he couldn't do anything, and I felt that he couldn't do it in my heart.
My current husband is very handsome, and I cherish him. I sometimes wonder what good things I did in my last life to meet him. I admire my husband from the bottom of my heart and affirm him a lot. Try to be as weak as possible, he says that I am not good and that I am not doing anything right, and I will also say: "You are right, I did this thing badly today." "Now I will follow my husband, and I won't be like a barrier like before.
Now I'm going to admit it, and it feels good to admit it. It's not like I used to think that I was inferior to you, and you overpowered me.
Every day, he did all the sanitation of our house, and he said that I couldn't do it well, and I said, "I didn't mop as clean as you, you see you mopping the ground brightly, and I didn't mop it clean four or five times." In this way, he worked harder.
I'll admit that he did a better job than I did. When I opened the door when I got home from work, I felt very comfortable when I saw the floor being bright, so I praised him a few words, and he was also very happy.
In the past, he was not satisfied, "not being content, and acting in vain." "At that time, I didn't think that when I look back now, is it all someone else's fault, and I am not at fault at all?Now look at my mistakes, I may be more wrong than others, maybe he is also at fault, but "a bad pot has its own bad pot lid", because I am a bad pot, even if I give you a good pot lid, you will "make" this pot lid after a long time. Now I can realize this problem.
My ex-husband used to be an alcoholic. I thought, what does it have to do with me that he drinks bad wine?I didn't let him drink bad wine, I never supported him drinking, and I was angry when I drank. Now it seems that he has a lot to do with me, he can't get the warmth and recognition of his family here, and he is very depressed in his heart, so he goes out to drink bad wine.
Now I get off work at 6 o'clock, so I go to the vegetable market to buy some food and come back to cook. My husband got off work late, came home at 8 o'clock, and after opening the door, there were hot meals and hot dishes waiting for him in the house, could he feel uncomfortable.
But I didn't realize it before, and I felt that the fireworks in this world were very vulgar. In fact, life itself is very vulgar, and it is necessary to live a vulgar life with a little fun, which is the real life.
In the past, I pursued those illusory things, and when I was doing real estate, I liked to compare. What lipstick to use today, what watch to wear tomorrow.
In the past, I pursued brands, and I had to wear good clothes and good cosmetics, but now I don't pursue these. I feel that my mood is different from before, and the things I pursue are also different.
Now my husband likes to give me lipstick on holidays, no matter what kind of lipstick he gives, as long as he gives it.
The two of us have been fine since we got married in 2020 until now. We are now preparing to get pregnant, and we are ready to have a second treasure, which is a second treasure for me and a head treasure for my husband. With joy, welcome the arrival of new life.