At this time, I always want to listen to military songs. So, I cycled Xiao Zeng's "The Day I Left the Army".
Listening to it, I felt a little inexplicably sad. The unit that once desperately wanted to leave, but when it was really time to say goodbye to the barracks, his heart was full of reluctance.
Time flies, and it has been more than 13 years since I left the barracks unconsciously, but I still remember everything about the day I left the team, and those memories flooded back in my heart.
On December 1, 2010, my comrades-in-arms who were about to leave got into the car, and I postponed my return home for three days because I still had unfinished manuscripts in hand.
On the day I left the army, only my girlfriend was with me, I didn't tell the other comrades, I was afraid that they would come to see me off, I was afraid to wave goodbye to them. The two of us pulled our bags early and walked out the back door of the troops. I looked back at the familiar barracks. In the evening, I stepped on the train home from Tianjin Railway Station alone.
The moment I got on the train, I felt extremely heavy. At that moment, I couldn't control my tears anymore and lay on the table and cried silently.
When I think back to my time in the army, I have a lot of thoughts. I was afraid that once I left, I would never have the opportunity to return to the army again, and I was afraid that I would never see my comrades-in-arms again, as well as my love. I couldn't let go, I was afraid to face parting, and my heart was full of unrelenting feelings and endless concerns.
I don't know how long it took, but I slowly raised my head, tears blurred my vision, and the sleeves of my padded jacket were already soaked.