September 9, 1976 was a very gloomy day for 14-year-old Kong Jining, because he lost his grandfather who used to love him very much
After Kong Jining heard the news, tears couldn't stop falling, how he hoped that all this was just a nightmare, and his grandfather *** could call him "Little Tiger" affectionately again.
But he could no longer hear the cordial and familiar call.
Kong Jining remembered that his father Kong Linghua and mother Li Min were also very sad at that time, and they also found it difficult to accept this heartbreaking fact.
Kong Jining was born in Fengze Garden in Zhongnanhai, the year he was born, **exactly 70 years old, **had this little grandson in the ancient years, and his heart was naturally very happy.
The elderly have always liked children, especially Kong Jining's cuteness, which is very likable, and every time he has free time, he will come like every ordinary old man, hugging his little grandson and teasing his little grandson.
Although Kong Jining was very young at the time, he was very smart, and every time he saw his grandfather, he would not continue to cry, but would use his little finger to probe and touch his grandfather's face, ** was often amused by the innocent appearance of his little grandson Kong Jining.
Regarding Kong Jining's name, there is also a deep relationship between *** and ***, when *** and his in-laws Kong Congzhou discussed naming their children, they wanted their children to inherit the revolutionary spirit of the family.
Therefore, some traditional characters such as "tiger" and "leopard" were removed from the category of word selection, and one word was prepared to be selected from the names of revolutionaries such as Marx and Lenin.
After repeated discussions between the two old men, it was decided to name his grandson "Jining", which means to inherit the ideas of Marxism-Leninism and contribute to the motherland.
When he was a child, Kong Jining didn't know that his name contained such a thick meaning, but his attachment to his grandfather *** was very strong, ** sometimes holding Kong Jining, looking at Kong Jining's eyebrows similar to He Zizhen, it is inevitable that he will recall the past.
When he fought side by side with He Zizhen, He Zizhen gave birth to a total of 6 lovely children for him, but except for Li Min, the other children either failed to find them after being given away, or died because of difficult conditions.
This made *** and He Zizhen suffer great spiritual pain back then, and at the same time, *** also felt ashamed of He Zizhen, and now he has a little grandson Kong Jining, and he poured his guilt about his relatives and children into this little grandson.
**Holding Kong Jining, I often show off to others and say:
"My little tiger is so energetic! ”
Li Min was very happy to see her father like her son so much, she found that her father in his later years rarely smiled because of work pressure and physical reasons, and only when he saw Kong Jining, he would smile.
It's a pity that Kong Jining was too young at the time to remember his grandfather's concern and love for him at that time, and when he was just over a year old, he moved out of Zhongnanhai with his parents in the arms of his mother.
At that time, Kong Jining was too young to understand what it meant to move out, but he felt that everything on the road was very novel, so he looked around with a pair of clear eyes.
Little he didn't know that from this day on, he was going to live a completely civilian life with his parents.
After Li Min moved out of Zhongnanhai, she rented an ordinary bungalow to serve as her "home" with Kong Linghua and her son Kong Jining. ”
Li Min moved out of Zhongnanhai only to find that although he had been taught by his father to be hard and simple, after all, there was still a huge gap between him and girls from ordinary families in terms of self-care ability.
In the past, I lived a life of stretching out my hands for clothes and opening my mouth for food, but now I have to grope little by little to learn to do housework and learn to support a family's firewood, rice, oil and salt.
At that time, Li Min would also return to Zhongnanhai on weekends to see his father*** Every time I see Li Min, I can't help but ask Kong Jining:
"Where's our little tiger? ”
When Li Min told his father that Kong Jining had slowly learned to walk and talk, and when he grew taller, he felt happy and a little lonely.
I am happy that my little grandson has grown up healthily, but what is lonely is that now that my little grandson has moved away from Zhongnanhai, I have not been able to watch him grow up and progress a little bit.
After Li Min moved out of Zhongnanhai, her life was very tense for a while, because Li Min and her husband Kong Linghua were still students at that time and had no independent income.
lives on the 30 yuan living expenses given by *** every month, and in addition, he has to hire a nanny to take care of the young Kong Jining.
Li Min had to learn to cook by herself because of the tight economy at that time, but the housework that seemed very simple in the eyes of others really let her get started by herself, but she felt that there were a lot of unfamiliar places.
Often because of the nervousness when learning to cook, the vegetables are either too salty or too light, and steaming steamed buns has become a big problem.
Because Li Min had never cooked before, the noodles were often too soft, so they didn't look good when they came out of the pot.
But Kong Linghua is very considerate of Li Min, he knows that Li Min has made great efforts to make the food like this, and sometimes even if the food is not delicious, he eats it with a smile.
He was afraid that Li Min would not be able to eat enough of these indescribable meals, so he went to the cafeteria to buy Li Min some food to eat. Li Min knew that her husband Kong Linghua loved her, and her heart was moved.
Later, it wasn't until Li Min and Kong Linghua both participated in the work that their lives improved a little, but because they were very busy after work, they had no time to take care of the young Kong Jining, so they sent Kong Jining to Shanghai and asked He Zizhen to take care of them on their behalf.
Kong Jining was innocent and naughty at that time, and after coming to He Zizhen's side, he brought a lot of happiness to He Zizhen, and at the same time, as he grew older, he also knew a lot of stories about his grandfather and grandmother when they were young, and understood a lot of truths.
Kong Jining didn't understand at that time that although he said that he was young, he had become a special pistachio for his grandfather and grandmother for the whole family.
He Zizhen has been living in pain and regret for decades after separating from ***, and now he sees Kong Jining, thinking that this little person has the blood of his lover *** who thinks about it day and night, and naturally loves Kong Jining very much in his heart.
Kong Jining has always been very attached to He Zizhen, and he has grown up little by little under He Zizhen's care, and he slowly understands that he has a vague memory.
That kind and kind grandfather was not only a grandfather who loved him, but also a leader of the people of the whole country, who devoted his whole life to the revolutionary ideals and cause.
The grandmother who doted on her in front of her was also a revolutionary heroine, and the scars on her grandmother's body were left in the battle that year.
Kong Jining, who knew all this, admired and admired his grandfather and grandmother more in his heart, and his thoughts about his grandfather were even stronger.
Kong Jining later followed his mother Li Min to meet his grandfather a few times, and he could deeply feel that his grandfather loved his mother and loved him at the same time.
His feelings for his grandfather are both thoughts of his grandfather as a child and admiration for his grandfather.
Kong Jining grew up with his grandmother until he was about to enter elementary school, and then returned to his parents. As soon as he returned to Beijing, he excitedly thought that he was very close to his grandfather.
I clamored several times to see my grandfather. But Li Min knew that his father was very busy with his work, so he could only say to him:
"When you put on the red scarf, you can go to see your grandfather."
When Kong Jining heard his mother say this, he looked forward to wearing a red scarf every day, so that he could see his grandfather.
When Kong Jining went to school, although Li Min was the daughter of ***, she and her husband Kong Linghua had always adhered to the principle of hard work and simplicity.
Therefore, in the choice of school for Kong Jining, he did not deliberately choose any particularly good school, but chose an ordinary primary school that was relatively close.
Kong Jining, who is here, studies and plays with the children of the civilian families around him, without any shelf. Later, when Kong Jining grew up, he recalled this experience in his childhood and said:
"I grew up among the common people! ”
Later, Li Min and Kong Linghua took Kong Jining to see ***, but unfortunately, his grandfather *** happened to go out for a meeting that day, so Kong Jining didn't get to see *** as he wished, so he couldn't help but be a little disappointed and drooped his head.
But they met in Zhongnanhai Li Min saw Uncle Zhou, thinking of the friendship he had with Uncle Zhou's family when he was in Zhongnanhai in the past, and hurriedly whispered to Kong Jining:
"This is your grandfather! ”
Although Kong Jining is small, he is very clever, and when he heard his mother say this, he hurriedly said sweetly:
"Hello Grandpa Zhou! ”
At that time, *** was already in his prime, because he had no children and no daughters, so he loved children very much, especially seeing that Kong Jining was very sensible and polite, he had a good impression of him.
** Took Kong Jining's little hand and encouraged him to study hard and be a person who contributes to society in the future, Kong Jining nodded and agreed.
In the process of studying, Kong Jining has always studied hard and never revealed his identity to any classmates, because under the education of his parents, he feels that he is also one of thousands of students.
Having a special family background does not mean that you are superior to others, but it means that you have to take on more responsibilities and be more diligent and motivated, so as to be worthy of your grandparents who fought for the establishment of New China.
Kong Jining later followed his father Kong Linghua to meet ***, but the grandfather he saw this time was obviously different from the grandfather in his memory.
Kong Jining was distressed to find that his grandfather's smile was still so kind, but his gray hair was more, and his face was not as ruddy as before, but after seeing Kong Jining, he was obviously very happy.
He saw that the naughty little grandson in his memory had now grown into a smart and lovely teenager, and he was very excited, he held Kong Jining's little hand and said
"Little Tiger, you have to come to see me often in the future. ”
Kong Jining nodded, he was also very attached to his grandfather, when he heard his grandfather say this, he couldn't help but feel a little sour in his heart, he didn't know.
Not only themselves, but also their parents often miss their grandfather, but because of the particularity of their grandfather's identity, they can't see each other often like ordinary people.
After Kong Jining left Zhongnanhai this time, he also wanted to follow his parents to see his grandfather several times, but due to various reasons, after all, he saw his grandfather less often.
But Kong Jining has always regarded his grandfather as his spiritual mentor in his heart, and he is determined to learn from his grandfather's dedication back then, and when he grows up, he will also become a person who contributes to the motherland.
Kong Jining has always been looking forward to seeing his grandfather again*** He has always thought in his heart that if he sees his grandfather again, he can tell him that he has made progress in his studies, and he has learned a lot of knowledge that he didn't know before.
With the support of this belief, he achieved excellent results and was successfully admitted to junior high school with excellent results.
Kong Jining, who is studying in junior high school, has grown from a white and chubby little boy to an elegant and elegant young man, and later Li Min once gave his ** to ***
**At that time, because of old age, his vision became more and more blurred, so he could only wear reading glasses to see the photos of his beloved grandson Kong Jining.
Although Kong Jining's coursework in junior high school was heavier than before, he still relied on his perseverance to complete his learning goals, and he was still at the top of his class.
Whenever he encountered difficulties in his studies, he would think back to the eventful years that his grandparents had gone through, and when he thought that they had still completed their great historical mission under extremely difficult conditions, he would feel that he had inexhaustible strength.
Unfortunately, when Kong Jining was 14 years old, he returned home one day and found his parents crying, only to know that his grandfather had left this world forever on September 9, 1976.
Kong Jining really couldn't accept such a fact at that time, he didn't want to believe that his grandfather, who once loved him and doted on him, had left forever, and his tears could no longer be stopped.
After the death of his grandfather, Kong Jining found that his father Kong Linghua and mother Li Min were also very sad, and his mother Li Min put a photo of his grandfather in a small room at home, and made a mourning hall for his grandfather to pay tribute to his grandfather.
After Li Min learned that her father had died, she was very self-blaming and painful in her heart, and she regretted it more than once, she shouldn't have thought about the problem too simply, and moved out of Zhongnanhai with her family.
So much so that I was not able to accompany my father in his last days.
Li Min poured his thoughts about his father into the tip of his pen, and later wrote a lot of works that missed his father.
Kong Jining remembered that in the years when his grandfather *** just passed away, his mother Li Min often dreamed that every time his grandfather*** woke up from such a dream, Li Min would always burst into tears.
Sometimes when Li Min misses his father ***, he will go to the collection of books left by his father ***, although Li Min did not know much about some relatively obscure Chinese classics when his father was alive before.
But after his father left, these classics became Li Min's sustenance for his father.
Li Min looked at his father's collection of books and the inscriptions that his father used to have in his homework book, feeling very sad in his heart, but also very proud.
The sad thing is that Daddy*** has left her forever, proud that he has a great and loving father.
Li Min often uses his father's words to teach his children, so that they can also have a heart that loves dedication and has the courage to work hard and forge ahead in life.
Li Min listened to the staff around his father say that his father had always wanted to return to Shaoshan before he died, although he was a great man, but he was also like every ordinary old man, and wanted to return to his roots in his twilight years.
However, because of his serious illness, he left this world forever before he could return to his hometown.
When Li Min heard this, she was already crying silently, so in the second year of her father's death, in order to fulfill her father's wish, she returned to Shaoshan to visit her father and fellow villagers.
After Li Min returned to Shaoshan, he saw every grass and tree in front of him, and thought that his father had grown up in this land, and he had slowly learned a lot of knowledge here, which laid a solid foundation for the revolution later.
In Li Min's mind at this time, the figure of her father *** appeared, her eyes couldn't help but moisten again, her tears kept falling, and her heart was full of thoughts about her father.
Li Min also went to visit the relatives and friends of Shaoshan who had been told by her father *** and her that she should visit, and the relatives in Shaoshan thought of the dedication of the *** family to New China, and they all warmly welcomed Li Min's arrival.
After Li Min learned that the lives of some relatives in his hometown were still relatively difficult, although he was usually very frugal in spending, he still tried his best to help them.
Later, Li Min also returned to Shaoshan many times, and every time he went back and thought of his father's life, he would burst into tears.
Kong Jining knew that his mother missed his grandfather *** Later, after entering the business world, he founded a company to promote red culture to commemorate his grandfather.
Kong Jining once said in an interview:
"My mother has always missed my grandfather, and although my grandfather said he was gone, he has always lived in the hearts of our family."When Kong Jining said this, he couldn't help but shed tears when he thought of the love that his grandfather had given him.