In "The Gate of the Mansion", Bai Yuting became a striking character. Since the beginning of her birth, she has carried the hope of the revival of the Bai family. In the bumps of the carriage, the second grandmother gave birth to her, and the Bai family was in the stage of vigorous development at that time. Bai Yuting is undoubtedly lucky, she grew up in a wealthy and loving family, with a loving father, a shrewd mother, and a pampered brother.
However, Bai Yuting's fate is full of twists and turns. Her deep affection for Wan Xiaoju has become the biggest pain in her life. Wan Xiaoju's refusal broke her heart. For the love in her heart, she was even willing to stoop down to become his aunt or maid, but Wan Xiaoju's indifference and rejection made her fall into despair. In the end, her property was swept away by her son, and the evening was bleak, with only her brother Bai Jingqi by her side.
But Bai Yuting does not deserve our sympathy. She bravely pursued her love, and despite Wan Xiaoju's rejection and the cold eyes of society, she never gave up. Her strength and perseverance have become the pillars of her life. She lived her life in her own way, and no matter how many blows life gave her, she was determined to follow her own path. In the eyes of others, he may have committed suicide because of love. But Bai Yuting, she is a woman who understands her needs.
Although Wan Xiaoju failed to respond to her feelings, this did not prevent her from confessing her love. So, she begged Bai Jingqi to hold a grand wedding for her, and she was married to Wan Xiaoju's **. The outside world laughed at this and felt that this move was extremely absurd, but Bai Jingqi understood her and supported her. She got her wish, found a way to express her love, and also gave herself the sense of ritual that infatuation should have. She knows her heart, knows what she is seeking, and is fearless from the eyes of the outside world. She pursues bravely and can fulfill herself, such a woman is really rare, never pitiful, and does not need the sympathy of others.
She maintains a clear understanding of feelings, does not break the moral bottom line of others, and accepts her own imperfections. Over the years, Bai Yuting and Wan Xiaoju's ** have relied on each other. Until one day, Wan Xiaoju was hunted down for refusing to sing for the Japanese. He fled to Bai Yuting's house to seek refuge. That night, Wan Xiaoju was shocked by the chrysanthemums in the house and was deeply moved. These chrysanthemums are all planted because of the word "chrysanthemum" in his name. He didn't expect Bai Yuting to love him so deeply, and burst into tears and clasped her hand. However, Bai Yuting was extremely awake at this moment, and she quickly withdrew.
Bai Jingqi was curious about this, why she had the opportunity to get her love but chose to flee. Bai Yuting explained: "I am married to **. "Indeed, she is married to **. ** Wan Xiaoju is her ideal and obsession. But when the real Wan Xiaoju stood in front of her, she realized that what she loved was a phantom. The real him is no longer as dazzling on the stage, he will be old, he will be fragile, he will have mortal emotions, and he will rely on others. She couldn't face him like this. Perhaps at that moment, she realized that her infatuation was not so pure and beautiful. 、
However, this seemingly perfect love exposes the weakness of human nature: we often only see the perfection of the people we love, but we can't accept that they are also ordinary people. Faced with the flaws in her human nature, Bai Yuting did not choose to escape or deny it. She accepted her imperfections with a calm attitude and made the decision to leave soberly.
Such a choice, although it seems to be an escape, is actually a wise self-love. She understands the true needs of her heart, and knows that if she turns her infatuation into long-term regret and disgust, it is better to always maintain that distant admiration. She knows better that if Wan Xiaoju really has an intimate relationship with her, it may only be out of a momentary touch, not true love. What she pursues is an upright love, and Wan Xiaoju can't give it.
Bai Yuting's understanding of feelings is profound and keen. She respects herself, Wan Xiaoju, and the ungotten love. For such a deeply loving but rational person, we should be more respectful than sympathetic.
What's even more touching is that such a woman who is deeply troubled by love has actually been surrounded by love. Although she failed to get Wan Xiaoju's love, her life is full of love from others. After Wan Xiaoju was killed by the Japanese, Bai Yuting still stuck to his memory, and his ** and chrysanthemum always accompanied her.
Until the end of her life, Bai Yuting was still listening to Wan Xiaoju's records. Maybe at that time, she will have some doubts and remorse. She once said to Bai Jingqi: "What have I done in my life? I have done one thing in my life, that is, I married Wan Xiaoju's ** and lived with ** for a lifetime. Her brother comforted her and said, "In life, if you do what you want to do, and you do it, you will not live in vain." ”
Bai Yuting also said that her step-son took all her property and now has nothing. However, even in the last moments of her life, she maintained that tenacity and sobriety. She has pursued love and perfection all her life, and although she has not been able to achieve her wishes, her tenacity and courage deserve our deep admiration. Bai Jingqi patted her back lightly and said softly: "These are just things outside your body, but you came to this world with immortal energy." Close your eyes and feel like everything is like a dream. Bai Yuting used her last strength, struggled to sit up, sang Wan Xiaoju's lyrics in her mouth, and then died peacefully in Bai Jingqi's arms.
She has never experienced true love in her life, has no partner, and has no children, but her blessings are not diminished by this. She has an older brother who loves her like her life, and as she says, that is her greatest happiness. Although Bai Jingqi is missing in the roles of husband and father, it is undeniable that he is a dutiful brother.
No matter what others think of Bai Yuting's maverick and unusual people, Bai Jingqi always understands, tolerates and supports her. He spent his life pampering and protecting his sister, and until the moment she died, he was still giving her the last comfort and not letting her leave with any regrets. can be loved so deeply for a lifetime, Bai Yuting is undoubtedly the luckiest person in the world.
If Bai Yuting could overlook the world in heaven and look back on her life, she would find that she was an extremely happy small group of people. For throughout her life she was rich and free, and lived to the fullest: in her youth she loved passionately and courageously pursued herself; In middle age, she stopped rationally, without entangled emotions or remorse; Although lonely in her later years, her favorite brother has always been by her side, giving her last relief and affirmation. Although her life has regrets, it is also more complete because of it.