I didn't like the smell of durian, so I didn't plan to buy it until I read an article saying that durian is a hot fruit, which is suitable for my physique. On the way to work, I walked into a fruit shop and picked up a durian and asked the boss to weigh it. The boss said 96 yuan, I thought a durian was only forty or fifty yuan, and 96 yuan exceeded my expectations.
96 yuan is not too much, and it will not affect life if you spend it, but I just feel expensive and reluctant to buy it. The child bought more than 100 toys and threw them away after playing for a few days, and I was not reluctant. Why is a piece of sugarcane worth 96 yuan expensive? Because I bought it for myself, why do I feel distressed when I spend money on myself, and I can save it? Don't feel sorry for the flowers for your family?
The root cause is not to love yourself. There is a deep sense of unworthiness in my heart. I remember when I was a child, my relatives gave me a beautiful bed sheet, and I liked it very much, but I was reluctant to make it on the bed, and I felt that it was not good to make it, so I kept it for later. After many years, the décor was outdated, and it was not paved, and it was just in the cupboard, witnessing that I was a person who did not deserve to have good things.
After many years of self-healing, I thought that I had this unworthiness, and today I found out that it still exists through this durian, and from time to time it will affect you in some aspects, making you heartache, sadness, and discomfort.
However, since you have found out, then accept your unworthiness, reconcile with the past that did not love you, and give yourself time every day to sort out your mood, take care of yourself, and love yourself well.
In the end, I bought myself the durian.